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These quotes might not be exact word for word, but you get the gist
“Life is not about trying to make it through the storm, it about learning how to dance in the rain”
“Be the change that you wish to see in the world” – Ghandi
If you plant peas you get peas, if you plant carrots you get carrots – what I remember of some Chinese proverb…basically another way of saying Karma's a bitch
“You can judge a society by how they treat thier weakest members” – Ghandi. I like this because i'm an animal activist
“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate.
Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.
It is our light not our darkness that most frightens us.
We ask ourselves, who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented and fabulous?
Actually, who are you not to be?
…You are a child of God.
Your playing small does not serve the world.
There's nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other
people won't feel insecure around you.
We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us.
It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone.
And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same.
As we are liberated from our own fear, Our presence automatically liberates others.”
I like this one even though I don't really believe in god
“Hakuna Matata”
“4 baby turtles” – splinter
you feel illiterate because when you try to read the words are blurry
you wash your hair twice
you feel like you have been laying in bed so much there must be an imprint of your body in bed…but you are still tired
you are so out of it you forget where you were driving and have to pull into random parking lots trying to remember where you were going
you forget what you are talking about mid sentence
you think your turn signal is broken because you have been pushing the windshild wiper control and didn't even notice the windshield wipers going on and off in front of your face
I took Trazadone, Zoloft, and at least 2 other ones and they did not help me at all. As far as side effects, I remember feeling a little confusion and inability to concentrate. That seems minor, but I was in the middle of working on a big writing assignment for school and could not afford to lose work days to these medications. I have given up on perscription medications. I have alot of experience with Ambien, and am not taking that anymore. It only works temporarily for me, then I take too many, then I have to get off, have rebound insomnia, and its the same rollercoaster ride over and over again. It sounds bad but I'm waiting until some generics to Lunesta come out to try those out (I don't have insurance and Lunesta is too expensive right now). Really, I need to work with the source of the sleeping problem, and not try to cover it up with drugs…but sometimes its exhausting and you just want a quick fix. My new plan is: NO PILLS
I have had many aproaches to passing the time, and this depends on how severe my insomnia is at the time. When I have a good foundation of sleep and have isolated sleepless nights, I can get up and do things that are productive like cleaning, writing, etc..
When I am having long term insomnia with very little nights of restful sleep it is more difficult. Sometimes I am so tired that I can't keep my eyes open to read so I just lay in bed. Also, there have been many nights awake in bed where I took sleeping pills but still could not sleep so I was to tired to moved, but still couldn't fall asleep.
My most common past time in bed is reading. I started out last year only reading book for fun. Then I switched to reading textbooks, which was really putting me to sleep for a while. Then I was reading motivational or metaphysical type books. Then I switched back to school books, which now no longer put me to sleep for some reason. I was wanting to write a book, and started that when I was up at night, but it was short lived. Now I have decided that I will get online when I'm awake, because there are so many things to look at I'm hoping it will completely take my mind off the insomnia, and kind of make me feel reset to go to sleep when I am done.
When its really bad, I cry here and there just to get out the frustration.
There has been nothing positive about my Insomnia – and I usually try to look at the bright side of things!
My lowest lows of Insomnia:
I always struggled with sleeping issues from time to time, but never anything debilitating. Then I went to law school. It is very stressful and there is an endless work load which makes it very easy to get behind.
Okay, back to my lowest lows:
Finals week this last semester. I took a final on o sleep the night before and 1-3 hours the two previous nights. This doesn't seem so bad, but our finals are 100% of our grades. They all occur in 1 1/2 weeks and for most classes are 100% of your grades. If you get severe insomnia like me, much of the hard work is wasted and you will get crapy grades…very upsetting. Also, the night I took 2 Ambiens (10mg) and 5 OTC sleeping pills (equiv of 10 Benadryl) and still only slept a couple hours…but couldn't move the next day.
I could go on and on, but most of the lowest times involve too many sleeping pills sometimes combined with too much alcohol and lck of sleep being detrimental to my school and my life.
