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I will say the video was super informative and it definitely made me feel like I wasn’t alone. I’ve slept well the last two nights and when the fears of sleep come during the day I try to ask myself why I am so worried about it. I know for a fact, and with much proof, that my job working from home is fairly easy. I am lucky in that I suppose, that I don’t have to get in a car each day, and thus I avoid any dangers from a lack of sleep. I’m not going to hop on the phone and chew a customer out, nor will I mess up my job. My day will get by just fine on a lack of sleep, but I’ll just feel bleh. Then I try to remind myself that I do things because I ENJOY THEM not because they will aid in my going to bed, 2, 4, 10 hours from now. If I want to ride my bicycle it isn’t because going outside will tire me later, it’s because I truthfully enjoy riding it. I try to remember that while riding too.

I had a lot of lights coming from my computer as well that I’ve turned off. It’s crazy the difference in the amount of light that I didn’t realize was in my room till I actively removed their sources. I read a book, a very boring one suggested by an old coworker and I fought the urge to fall asleep while reading. I only made it about 10 pages in before giving up. I stopped watching TV from the couch, as I sleep on my couch (maybe that’s a bit strange for most).

My big fear though is that this is fairly normal. I will go many nights without an occurrence and it will happen again, but I’m really going to try to have things on hand to do rather than stir there on the couch frustrated.

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