[angelic]

Thank you so much for posting this reply, and I’m happy to hear you are recovered. May I ask – did you have a trigger / life event that started it all? And you said the pendulum pattern lasted a few weeks, was that after the four weeks from when you posted? I’m just curious. I know the healing is not a linear thing and that it follows its own course and with your own natural biorhythms. Again thank you for checking in, it means so much!

[angelic]

Yes, I am doing more things on iffy days. I understand and feel what you mean about the grace, gratitude and the humility involved in relinquishing control. Today, I had to cancel a brunch plan to go to a meetup in NYC and make new friends, and it was frustrating feeling. I’m starting to make plans and looking at the pattern of on / off days Every second day – but I know I need to schedule things for the supposed “off” days and keep seeing all as OK.

I don’t use a sleep mask but I do use ear plugs most of the time as I did before this all started. I feel like I’m in recovery mode because there have been many days where I am no longer thinking about sleep or looking things up – that said,

I returned to the original poster because I saved this thread a while ago, hoping to connect to someone, feeling like I want to schedule things and can’t fully commit to anything because some days I have not been able to barely function.

– but on other days I have surprised myself by being able to work with the yucky feelings and feel like, well I know I’ll sleep again soon because I have slept well some nights in this past month. I know I am recovering.

I have learned sleep is a passive force – which no one was really saying in the medical community. I love that you said Do not Fight back.

[angelic]

Dear Luke

Thank you so very much for replying. I am so glad to hear you feel this peace and are looking back at the experience as over. For me, it’s been about 5 or 6 months and I am in the middle of a painful major life stressor which I realize my brain is relearning to sleep through again, the stressor that triggered all this does not need to resolve in order for my sleep to return.

I had originally found the original post about “every other night” because that is the sort of pattern I seem to be in, but I know the healing is not linear and these nights will fill in.

Did you have any patterns as you started to recover? Anything that stands out. Anyways, I am so thankful to be writing to you right now as someone who knows what I’m experiencing.

With Love,
Angelic

[angelic]

Hi Lozelise,

Thanks for this reminder. How are you doing now and thank you for posting,

D

[angelic]

Hi Luke,

Thanks for this reminder. Can you post a little about your own recovery, thank you.

Love,
D

[angelic]

Hi,
How was your recovery and how are you doing? Thanks for posting and starting this thread.

Love,
D

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