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Omg, yes there's some weeks where I'll only sleep several minutes a day, not even an hr, its ridiculous haha, I mean I havr the times where I'm up for a couple of days before being able to sleep, then there's the times where I'll sleep an hour if even that a day at a time, think that might feel worse that nust being up for a couple of days not being able to sleep, because here I am thinking like, ok, I. Slept for a little bit, I should be able to sleep for a little more, then end up not being able to, all false hope haha, I have tried trazadone before, I didn't help me get to sleep any better but when I did eventually fall asleep I did not feel like getting up at all the next day
Yes, very much so behind me, I just signed up for the sleep training course, looking forward to it 🙂
I think my insomnia leads to anxiety and depression, cuz when I'm not able to sleep, all I focus on is sleeping, way to get to sleep easier, thinking each passing day, will get me to sleep easier, then I just end up laying in bed, and nothing, I just lay there, unable to sleep despite how exhausted I've become, I don't feel like talking to people, I isolate myself from others, I become frustrated by the smallest things, I'm irritable, then this isloation I put myself into probably leads to depression, I haven't been officially diagnosed, I wouldn't even know if I feel depressed, I just keep clinging onto hope of just being able to sleep, when I had my worst series of sleeplessness, it was over a 4week period of time, well 4weeks and 2days and in this time period I slept only 12hrs,I was going crazy, felt alone in this, like why does it seem like I'm the only 1 not able to sleep?? Every1 seems to just fall asleep in minutes, here I am awake for 8days,(this being the first wk), and I'm getting even angrier I can't sleep, then start getting little suicidal thoughts, actually acted out on them twice, luckily nothing happened, I mean I just wanted to sleep, I didn't care hoow, if I ever woke up, I got so sick of being awake so much that 4week time period I actually filled my tub with water and stood there as the tub filled with an electrical appliance plugged into the socket, and I just kept thinking, what am I doing?? Then dropped it into the water, nothing happened, then I did it again another day, and got lucky a 2nd time nothing happened, I eventually was able to finally sleep and it never got that bad again, but being up for 2 or 3days is kinda normal for me, I'm more surprised when I actually get sleep then being up for a series of days, so guess my insomnia did kinda lead to anxiety, depression, then into something much worse, glad those days are over 🙂
Well, I have a major sweet tooth as well, probably why I was fat the first 17years of my life haha, but my most 3 favorite desserts are cheesecake, brownies, and cotton candy haha, and comfort foood for me is when my nanay (mom) makes filipino food, my favorite being adobo and tosino, if I go to the sari-sari, which means 'variety' in the tagalog language, I'll get filipino ice cream, flavors most people might not have tried would be ube, which is purple yam, and cheese flavored ice cream, its sooo good, haha everyone looks at me weird when I tell them I eat cheese ice cream haha, I pretty much eat rice with everything, usually steamed jasmine rice, and eating dried squid or dry-fish, which is usually little anchovies that are dried, I eat them like chips but u can eat it with rice haha
Haha, I actually very likely do have obsessive compulsive disorder, I dnt have a particular routine before going to sleep, but I do have to check if the doors locked repeatedly, the patio door bar lock in addition to the actual patio door being locked, I turn off unneccessary lights in the house, a ritual that I normally do before going to sleep is taking a hot shower, then turning the ac real low, or if its winter open the window, but yeah I'm the same way, I will not invite anyone over when I have to sleep, its a 'must', I mean, if I plan on sleeping then I better not invite anyone over haha, cuz otherwise I won't be able to sleep until they leave, I mean, I don't do the whole 'checking the locked door' thing now, but when I was a kid, omg, for real, I would leave the house, turn the key, repeatedly, like 10-15 times, to make sure it was locked, then try opening the door, and sometimes I would walk down half the block, then walk back to make sure I locked it again, its not so bad now, I'm at ease just looking at the lock from where I am, and seeing its locked instead of getting all anxious and having to get up and check, i'd do the same with the stove and make sure it was off, anything that could result in a potentially unrealistic horrific event, i'd have an obsessive-compulsive tendency, locking the doors, to make sure no1 comes in and murders me or my family, checking the stove, so the house doesn't burn down or have a gas leak and explode, putting on the emergency brake in the car back on and off repeatedly to make sure it doesn't roll dwn the hill and hit something, my OCD tendencies, though, aren't something that prevent me from sleeping, just when I do them, I do them repeatedly, or clean things thoroughly, like I would literally handscrub my floors when I had tile flooring at my other apt, instead of mopping, but I have lil routines for everything, like when I get ready for work, I check that I do have my wallet, phone, keys, chapstick, and now that I started smoking last summer , a lighter and my cigarettes haha
Haha, I have several stay awake drinks, I used to work at mcdonald's, so when I was there,the first thing i'd do before I clocked in was get a double shot of espresso, and just sweeten it and add cream, and chug it real quick, I would be jumping off the walls, regular coffee doesn't do anything for me, from starbucks I would like getting the venti mocha frappuccino afogado, haha, from the gas station I like getting the starbucks double shot energy, I've tried java monster's, the vanilla bean is the only 1 I like, and the hyrdoxycut drink mix packs, it is a diet supplement that's spose to make u lose weight, but again, I dnt really care, cuz I'm so exhausted at this point, I drink it literally 20minutes after I get up for work because it picks me up immensely, when I was at mcd's I would drink the hydroxycut drink pack along with the double shot espressos i'd drink, and I wouldn't drink just 1 double shot of espressos, I would drink at least 2, so that would be 4 espresso shots, sometimes I would drink even 4 of these double shots just so I wouldn't dread feeling tired, but then I got into a cycle that I wouldn't be able to sleep because of how many espresso shots i'd drink, then because I was so tired when i'd go in, I would drink even more to wake back up, but at the moment its the hydroxycut drink mix packs that I use, when I was fat, I actually used hydroxycut to lose weight, and use it as an energy booster currently when I go running or work out, which I haven't done in over a year now
Well I've had all kinds of experiences with xanax, some have gotten me in trouble, haha but I find it to be the only time I feel completely rested after waking up, I don't take it often because of the trouble I have gotten into, like now I might take it a couple of times a month, when I'm having trouble sleeping, but then I'll be in my little 'xanax daze' and end up taking a lot more than what I wanted, then end up doing dumbass things I don't remember doing at all, I don't get these prescribed to me, I just get them off of friends, the first time I tried it, I didn't like it because I didn't feel anything, but that was 1 1mg 'football' pill, I have an unusually high tolerance in regards to pills, I have to take a couple to feel any effect, so I have tried the 'bars' which after taking 1, I'll start feeling relaxed and less anxious, but I have to be careful, because just taking 2bars can bring me into the xanax daze and then I end up going out getting more without any knowledge or recollection of doing so, then again doing crazy ass things in this daze and having people tell me what I did, I'm like shut up, I did not! Some funny, some embarassing, some again got me in trouble, like my current DWI case, which I'm almost at thr end of, I was literally just going to pick up my clothes from the laundrymat, 5minznutes from my house, so b4 I left, I took a couple of the 'footballs' the 1mg blue oval pills, well apparently I was swerving, got pulled over by the police, she thought I was drunk, but I told her I rarely drink, so to confirm, she gave me a breathalizer test, which I passed, so then she drew my blood to find out what I was on, gave me a field sobriety test, ended up having the car towed, went to jail for like a day, got out on a PR bond, had to hire an attorney, got charged with possession of a controlled substance, and DWI, My attorney was able to get the possession charge dropped, but still have the dwi case, which ended up getting me a $1600 fine and having to take dwi classes, so now I'm more cautious when I take xanax, but there's just some days I'm so sleep deprived I just really don't care, I just want to get to sleep, and xanax has me feeling completely rested everytime I've taken it, prescribed or not…
Yeah, I'm usually so exhausted I'll just lay there in bed with my eyes closed til its time to get up and go to work, the time seems to pass so quickly when u can't sleep and then dread going to work, sometimes I'll clean or try the 'if u don't sleep in 15minutes get up' but I just end up staying up the same way as if I was laying dwn with my eyes closed the whole time, it gets so frustrating haha
Sigh another thing to add on our list of negatives is isomniacs more likely to suffer from stroke, heart attack and cardiovascular disease, it was on the news yesterday morning
I, too, have had the unfortanate insane feeling from lack of sleep, but it wasn't frm sleeping just a couple hours a night, it was from not being able to sleep period, for 8 consecutive days, then I finally sleep, for just a few hours, then ended up staying awake another 8 consecutive days, this pattern repeated itself twice more, slept a few hrs, but the 3rd time I was awake 7 consecutive days, and did it again, another 7 consecutive days, from the few hrs of sleep I would get in btwn these periods of being awake, I would have weird dreams, which I couldn't tell was real or not, I thought the fbi was after me for a few days, til I was asking my family, and they're like, 'u are trippin' I'm like well in the past 16days I slept on 6hrs so, yeah going a little crazy here, it could have been the anxiety of searching for a job at the time that kept me awake, but I never had insomnia so severe like that before, , I was starting to think I had fatal familial insomnia haha, , but once that 4week period of time passed I went back to my regular bouts of sleeping a couple hrs if that, a day, then being up for just a couple days, but yeah, it was not a fun time at all, I did feel 'suicidal a little bit, like I didn't care what happened to me, as long I slept, didn't care if I ever woke up again, I actually twice went to the bathtub, filled it with water and threw an electrical appliance plugged into the socket still, must have been my lucky day, cuz nothing happened…..
Haha, ok, yeah that's what I meant to do, 'i know I need more sleep when I post a new topic as a reply' haha, I hasve RLS again this mrn, its sooo annoying, I can always feel when im going to get it before I ever sit down to actually rest and get the restless legs feeling, like when I before I got off work, I'm like ' I'm sooo going to have RLS in the morning' haha
You know u need more sleep when u take out the trash but later find that u put it in the fridge for some odd reason haha
Haha, yes! This is probably the main way I get to sleep, by exhausting myself physically and mentally, I'll go days without sleep, while going to work still, coming home walking my dogs, sometimes I'll even walk home from work which is 4miles, I work the overnight shift at a mexican restaurant, and there is a lot of physical work, lots of running around, carrying things that weigh 50lbs or more, and I work 10-12hr shifts, so it takes a toll on my body daily, even moreso when I haven't slept and do it all over again the next day, so I mean I'm not really restricting sleep by any means, I just continue to go to work despite the fact I've been awake for 2days, still don't let this inability to sleep phase me, I mean I a very strong-willed person mentally, I can make myself do lots of things weird if I force myself to like not eating for a week, I can do like its nothing, so pushing myself to continually work just makes me more and more tired as each day passes til one day when I come home from work I'll just surprisingly crash then wake up like wow, guess I must have needed that sleep, sl sleeping by means of exhaustion is right up my alley haha
I, too, think I'm naturally a person that's always alert, its hard for me to turn the switch off on this when I'm trying to sleep, I listen for every little noise I can hear so I can be aware of what's happening around me, I don't know, I've always done this for as long as I can remember, I wouldn't know if its hyperarousal, but I'm am always on full alert mode no matter how tired I am physically and mentally, but I don't, I suspect I have obsessive-compulsive disorder, and also took a little online assessment test that also said I have it , maybe its more of me compulsively paying attention to details in sound, like I can tell who's in the kitchen by the way they open the fridge, I can tell who comes into my house by the way they close the door, its just this constant need I have to pay attention to these things but I mean this isn't the only thing that keeps me awake, its just something I notice I do when I'm not able to sleep, I've also tried seroquel, it really didn't work on me, I have this unusually high tolerance for pills, it really just felt like taking a lot of sleeping pills, and sleeping pills no longer work on me, they just make me feel sick now, more lately I've been taking in deep breaths and exhaling and counting these as I'm laying down to help relax me, it works sometimes I guess haha
I've not tried hypnosis, I dnt think I'm one of the people that would be easily susceptible to it, but if presented the opportunity I would definitely try it, I just watched this show, Curiosity, and the idea on this show was 'brainwashing' through hypnosis, so they rounded up about 180 people for this test, about 16 made it through and 4 eventually, after suspicions of people just playing along kinda thing, anyways what they were being hypnotized to do was make an assassination attempt, they had several scientists and cameras going to somewhat validate this experiment, only 1 out of the last 4 made it through to the last test, which was the assassination attempt, the 1st test was for the subjects to abandon a social norm, so they were hypnotized to disrobe in public, the 2nd test was the cold water immersion test, filled a tub with ice and water, it was 35 degrees and they had emt's on the scene, were hooked up to machines to monitor their breathing and heart rate, and the idea was could the hypnotic mind override what was happening physically and believe they were in a hot tub with warm water, only 1 passed, the other 3 only lasted a few seconds, and in the final assassination test, they had the guy believe he failed the experiment, so as they were 'saying goodbye' the hypnosis guy told him there was a diplomat in the building, he was a bad guy, when he gets outside there's gonna be a gun in a backpack and when he sees the guy, he's gonna shoot him 3times, and he did it, and didn't recall any of it, until the guy hypnotized him to get his memory back, anyhow, if power of hypnosis is this strong, then I'm sure it can be used to get sleep, I mean I just saw a guy go against his character and shoot some guy, so sleeping seems like a much easier thing to hypnotize somebody into,I don't know haha just sharing what I just saw on the science channel.
