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Thank you Martin. I have been in “fight and fix” mode for so long, that I see it only adds fuel to the flames. I completed an CBT-I course when this first began am incorporating the strategies that support me best, to the principles of ACT-I. For example, instead of getting out of bed to read, when sleep doesn’t come, I am staying in bed and reading. I focusing on not fearing but “befriending” wakefulness (wild concept) and trying to see the positive in the rest I am getting. However, it’s surprising how hard it is to let go of the struggle and just let it be. Letting go, when you a fixer at heart, is hard. I have started to notice that with each difficult night, I become just a little more desinsitized to it. I am seeing that a bad night doesnt equal a bad day. I feel that hurtle I struggle the most with, what keeps me in the struggle the most, is thinking “this is not normal”, “insomnia is not normal”. That belief is the feer that keeps me in this loop, I think.
Thank you for the support. The sleepless nights are barrable, it’s the physical/emotional anxiety it creates that I find to be worse. I’ll continue to try and let it go and take each night as they comes 🤞
Sadly my hyper arousal and sleep anxiety have resurfaced. I began my 1mg of Lunesta again a few night ago with the goal of letting things calm down and trying a more gentle taper next time. First 3 nights were great Last night however I could not sleep at all, even with the Lunesta. I kept getting out of bed to go read which usually helps. It did not. My anxiety began. I took a Xanax, which I rarely do, and it didn’t help. I’m scared.
Thank you both. I still have a ways to go. Some bumpy nights have triggered my sleep anxiety again but from what I have read, that is to be expected. This forum has been really refreshing, a nice difference from the “doom and gloom” of other insomnia support chats I’ve read. Thanks for the support ♥️
