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I still have your films waiting for a “serious” viewing. My head hasn't been very…clear lately, so I haven't gotten to it yet, but I will!!!
Well, if I eat out or drink by itself its sparkling. But, generally, I prefer still. Does that count as an actual answer???
Hrm…
Okay…since a lot of you are apparently from Texas, maybe you'll appreciate this one:
Real Mexican Food (i.e. authentic) or Tex-Mex food???
Sorry in advance for long dialogue quote, but I really liked this:
(From Bleach)
Ulquiorra: Are you scared? … There's no one left to protect you. You're finished You will die here alone, without anyone to hold on to…I asked you if you are afraid.
Orihime: I'm not…scared. Everyone came here to rescue me. My heart is already…with theirs.
Uruhara: How ridiculous. We already know what awaits you and your friends. Their coming here…will not change the fact that all of you are going to die. There is no changing that. By sharing your feelings with your friends before your death, you humans are able to set yourselves at ease. It's an instinct that keeps you from falling into a pit of despair…In reality, it is impossible for people to truly share their feelings. It's simply a human delusion.
Orihime: That may be true. It may be impossible for us to all share the exact same feelings…But when you both care for each other, your hearts are able to draw a little closer together…That's what it means when we say our souls are one.
Ulquiorra: What is a soul? Could I see it if I tore open your chest? Could I see it if I cracked open your head?
I know, it's no secret, but insomnia often goes hand-in-hand with other mental health issues, but it's almost a chicken-or-the-egg thing, which came first the insomnia, or the mental health issues???
I've concluded it doesn't matter. They make each other worse. Usually, if I have one, I have both.
Also, one of the FIRST things my ex noticed about me (physician) was how bad my insomnia was & how it always coincided with my mood drops.
Other psychiatrists/therapists have agreed.
As for what the future holds, I can only help to continually strive at managing things as best as I can, I kind of take it as a given that both issues will be around for a while, given that they've been with me for more almost 2/3 of my life.
'IvanAleisterMesniaa' wrote on '17:I didn't get sleep for a few days and ended up sleeping through my best friends graduation, her and I were friends since we were 7, she understood though, made me take her out for dinner and dancing to make up for it.
I also slept through a funeral for a relative but it didn't bother me much since they always called me a fruitcake and other words.
Last important thing I slept through was a car accident LOL, when I was younger I fell asleep in the back of the car after seeing a sleep specialist, and we got into a car accident where a board crushed my moms pelvis.
I woke up in the hospital with some scrapes and bruises and a broken hand, i was like why am I in a hospital!
My big thing, thank gooodness I was Mr. Overachiever and could get away with it, my big thing in college and HS was sleeping through class. I found little tricks, like propping your head up head down, eyes closed. Or sitting, RIGHT next to the teacher, that way she had to turn all the way to see my face and I could sleep. College was even worse.
I've also been known to literally fall asleep on the job so many times I've lost count–this includes both sitting and standing jobs.
Well, it didn't make me laugh per se…but after attempted starts (several) I didn't get out of bed until 5pm today. As impractical as that is, it kinda made me smile knowing I'd caught up on sleep.
'Martin' wrote on '05:We're hoping to get out of NYC and head west – want to live in California, maybe around the Bay Area!
I love LA, wine country, etc. But I live in the Bay Area, and I don't think I ever want to move. Moved here almost ten years ago. Awesome weather, multiple diverse cities all within driving distance, great public transit–and if you have a car, consider contra costa country…commute is long, but rent/house prices much cheaper (it's suburbia for the most part though.)
Lots of musicians and “readers” out there. Cool.
I just recently (after being on brain numbing dose of meds) readjust my meds, so I've been literally reading for the first time in several years. (For years, on these meds I literally could NOT sit still/focus for much more than a magazine article.) Now that my creativity is “back” I also hope to get back into writing…and eventually making films.
In the meantime, I really enjoy poker. I was about ready to give up on, “lotto players” as we call them were driving me insane. But I've found two great places to play poker (for free) and really enjoy the strategy. I know some think it's gambling, some think it's just luck, but if you're really playing seriously it's all about noticing betting patterns, statistics, pot odds, implied odds, what you think your opponent has, what you think your opponent thinks you have, etc. It's a very skill-based game–as long as you're not playing with idiots.
I also collect just about everything from DVDs and BLU (from obscure, out-of-print, to mainstream.) I don't have as big a collection as most would think since I talk non-stop about cinema, but it is mostly indie and foreign and Criterion and for BLU I have a lot of great action movies. I also collect autographs, poster art (like movies, theatre), etc. I also have been a lifelong collector of stuffed animals. I have so many they are jammed in every corner of my room and closet!!!
I don't think my similarity is anything as awful as yours (I feel for ya)…but I suffer from something pretty comparable, but different, even somewhat opposite.
I will often force myself to “stay up” even when sleep deprived not to do anything constructive, but simply my mind won't let me. (There is more to this, but I'm trying not to be too wordy.) Often it is time specific. It usually has nothing to do with the usual “force” yourself up for something fun or work or school.
But the anxiety aspect def. extends to my sleep life–ranging from much of what you described, to my persistant love-hate relationship with nightmares. I don't even think I could really share any of them without severely censoring it, but they are pretty awful. Because I often lucid dream, I can control certain things, but there is much I can't control, and recently (in the past few years) I have lost what used to be my saving grace of having the ability to “force myself awake” since I am usually aware that I'm asleep. It gets very scary to the point that I will deny myself desparately needed sleep if/when I do wake up.
My brain also has gotten very tricky on me, I will through the course of any given nightmare (for lack of a more specific word) my brain will convince me I am awake, by allowing me to wake up in the dream–usually several times as I try and try to actually wake up, because my brain keeps trying to convince me that I already have woken up (environment, recreation of literally waking up, having long conversations with people in my dream about whether I am awake or asleep, etc.) So when I'm in a phase where I'm experiencing this I am severely afraid of going to sleep or back to sleep.
It is also highly common for me to wake up (sans bad dreams) in full on panic attack.
White. (I like both, but I tend to prefer whites, largely because most reds tend to upset my stomach.)
So…
Cats or Dogs???
“When somebody's knocking
When somebody wants me
When somebody's tryin' to love me completely
I get scared
Don't know how it works
Will somebody save me
Or will I get burned?”
-Hilary Duff / DIGNITY / “Burned”
Not her best lyrics ever, not the deepest way of putting it, but in its simplicity, I've always related to this song.
