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Well since insomnia started back in 2015,last year I started having serious health issues.
What first hit me was gastric problems like your boyfriend,gastritis,constant nausea,loss of apetite,bad digestion.and above all I know I have hiatal hernia.The more stress I had the bigger problems I had with my stomach.
Back in 2018 problems started with lungs.I went 2-3 times to ER because of loss of breath,given corticosteroid inhalations and it only helped temporary.Did X-Ray of lungs and it wasn’t good and I never smoke cig in my life.It took them 3 months of my sore cough that they figure out via MRI od lungs I had pneumonia and got allergy to those micro organisms which live in dust,don’t know how to spell it in english.But there is not much to do about it.The diagnosis: alergic asthma
Insomnia kept hitting me,I could lay in bed over day tired as hell,my brain simply won’t shut off.
Psychiatrist kept presribing me antidepressants I took them all,no help for insomnia,and I told them they even make my insomnia worse and my mood don’t improve at all so after 3 years I insisted to took me off them.
Now I take 1 mg of klonopin+7.5 mg of mogadon which makes me fall asleep for like 5 h but I feel very tired,sleepy when waking up,like I didn’t sleep at all.But that combo is the only solution to skip taking neuroleptic drugs for insomnia.
But very often I feel so depressed that I want to commit suicide but I don’t have fucking guts to to so.
I went to like 20 doctors didn’t get any help,they only told me the problem is ME,my life.
I live with 2 sick parrents,which I love them so much,but seems like they take all energy from me,beeing so sick
My passion is everything with computers,I’d like to build them,I have many notebooks and desktop pcs,but I lost will for life,so I don’t pay attention to them anymore.
I like to play pc games too,but nowdays they make me so tired so I skipped playing them because insomnia makes me so tired,and that little energy what is left I need to save for job obliggations.
The only possibly solution is maybe change city,country,find a new job,but even after that I’m not sure if it would help,seems like my brain is stuck in some kind of circadian sleep disorder and can not reset it self.
What I was told is that first step would be to quit job,but I really can’t find another one,because this is my forth job,and personally I’m not sure if this insomnia hell would end up even with that,because as I wrote you before I was off-work for more then a year,I couldn’t fall asleep.
Now doctors can’t do anything to help me,I’m left by myself,and I’m so close to commit suicide,because I can’t find a way to help myself and I keep getting more and more sick,and I want to end up this AGONY.
I feel tired in the past few days,very tired,exhausted,so I’m afraid if something bad is happening to me maybe tyroid problems or must be sleep deprivation?
I do suffer a lot from memory loss.I constantly loose things around house,I sometimes even don’t know where I parked a car.This is frustrating and agony.
But the worse thing is loosing expensive things like wallet,keys,cellphone.I somehow do manage to find them,but I forget where I put them.
One thing which worries me,I did blood test because I feel very exhausted,tired these days.
And there was one analysis which indicates I have allergy.
Is there any correlation between allergy and insomnia?
I read somewhere that allergy makes your body to produce histamine which makes you awake.
So I don’t know if this is true or not.I did some basic tests on allergy and got result that I’m allergic to dust.
I was very ill yesterday,I felt exhausted,tired but couldn’t sleep,and I almost felt like I don’t feel legs anymore.
A friend of my took me to local doctor and I had high blood pressure,not normal for me,since I always have low blood pressure.
Me and doctor spoke about all what I went through my life.
She said that insomnia is kind of my secondary problem,and it won’t go away until I don’t find somehow a way to beat it,no doctor can help me unless I make some changes in my life.Hmm weird.
I read a lot about insomnia and because I work in rotating shifts,one thing which came to my mind was shiftwork sleep disorder.But then again I couldn’t sleep when I was off-work for more then a year,which is awkward.Seems like the brain is somehow stuck in some weird circadian disorder maybe.
She suggested me to try hypnosis.Anyone tried it,did it help?
Btw thx for your support guys.I should go tonight to work but I took day off,I feel very exhausted and tired,with lack of concentration and almost like in some dream state,like a drunk person.
I went to hospital to ask my psychiatrist about this condition cuz I was affraid I got psychosis and she told me no,i’ts some dissociative symptoms,like nothing so serious.
I am so afraid of getting psychosis from insomnia because some psychiatrist told me it can sadly happen,and I worry about it.
Come on.If this guy was not sleeping for ten days,he would have brain damage, permanent psychosis and hallucinations.His body could not handle it,he would have many symptoms.
He probably sleeps but he is not aware of.I read much about people struggling with insomnia,not sleeping for 10 days is not possible unless he suffers from FFI.
I really don’t need to proove you anything.
I told you,I’ve become constantly ill since I got chronic insomnia,so I don’t need wikipedia,I talk about facts.
Never been ill,had flue once in life maybe,never got infections until now.
And it is not one statement that crhonic insomnia pushes to body to it’s limit to the point where a person gets serious heart and lung problems,diabetes,hormonal issues.
Now you will even tell me that chronic insomnia can’t lead to psychosis,which many of psychiatrist told me it can.
Because I live in poor country and small city,I can’t find CBT-I therapist.
Is there theory that hypnosis can help?I could try it but travel like 100 miles to even try that which is only thing left for me to try.
Is there some online course and a book about it,so I can be my own therapist?
I talked to like 20 psychatrist they told me there is no magic pill,and no help,the only help is giving strong typical antipsychotics and I’m trying to avoid that,because I don’t want to spend the rest of my life lying in bed.
Man.I never been sick in my life then now.
I had flue once in life,now with insomnia all hell broke loose.
I’m really not in the mood to prove you anything,because,I know the best my body,and I told you I never been sick in my whole life until I got insomnia.
Ofc sadly it is chronic,because for 4 years I can not sleep at all.I even stopped taking sleeping pills but ended in hospital with 96 h without sleep and got thorazine i.m. which did nothing to me.
As for what insomnia can do to the body,read the following and it is sadly damn true:
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Sleep_deprivation
The worse things for me is digestion problems,nausea,worst headaches in my life,serious mood swings (from anger,frustration to depression,anxiety and crying),tiredness,breathing problems with lungs,and I never smoke a cig in my life and now even allergy and paradentosis.
Insomnia is just tearing me apart and I seem can not do nothing about it sxcept comit suicide as the only solution to this agony 🙁
Dear friend,do you go to work?
I have serious responsable job and struggling with insomnia is mission impossible to me.
I sent all the reports for varous neorologists and psychiatrists to Croatia to sleep clinic to see if there is any help if not,I am affraid the first solution is to quit job.
Even after that I’m still convinced that sleep won’t come back but psychiatrist disagree because it never returned even when I was off-work for more then a year although I took a.d. back then.
Now none of the antidepressants work to make me fall asleep,and psychatrist is thinking to give m strong typical antipsychotics even I am not psychotic just to save me to have serious issues with health.
But that is not a life,with meds like that you have what we call a life of a plant you are basically tied to bed,and even lower doses make me feel like I’m drunk,so that is not solution for me,and there is chance I can go to job like that and have conecentration normally.
I upped the dose of mogadon to 10 mg to see if it will help,if not I will up the dose of clonopin to maybe 1.5 mg and wait for response from Croatia and sleep clinic.
But reading all this post makes me cry a lot,as I can see rarely someone cured the chronic insomnia.
I wish I could only know the reason wat got me to this stage,then mybe it would be easy to work with therapist,now when all reports are OK,seems the problem is either shit work sleep disorder,my hipersensibility or some perament damage to neuroreceptors from giving varoius meds.
I will suggest to my psychiarist to take me off all od the meds, but that’s double ended sword,to see if the natural sleep will ever return,Tried that one and I ended with 4 nights/days with not even 5 minutes of sleep after quiting Zoloft.
The one thing which is not reasonable to me is that natural sleep didn’t come back even after a period over 1 year when I didn’t work,and I change place if living,change bed,chance city,country nothig helped.
So I really don’t kno what to try anymore,what is left is acupuncunture,homeopathy and hypnosis.
You probably read,if you read all about sleep,and sleep deprivation that chronic sleep deprivation lowers immune system,no wonder I am constantly ill.
I work in rotating shifts,I do hope you know what that means.
Sleep is very important in regenerating cells,and eliminating toxins,which obviously doesn’t happen to me.
The problem is that I can not even sleep over day to miss the sleep I didn’t have over night and seems to me I am stuck in vicious circle.
