Forum Replies Created
-
Posts
-
Hi Hiker. I appreciate your reply. And I’m not happy that you’ve been down this road before but happy that I’m not alone. I did my best to get on with my day today. I kept my same wake time but lounged around on the couch a bit. I didn’t sleep though. I accepted the unpleasantness of being tired today and I got through it. Now I’m just trying to relax and stay present. If anxiety rises, I’ll try my best to accept it and let it pass. The letting it pass is the difficult part because I tend to get back to back waves. When I sleep well my anxiety is like non-existent. Not sure where you are in the world but it’s almost bed time for me. I’m getting ready to write my gratitude. Everything will be ok. I know that it will. Thank you again for your reply.
I know sleep can’t be controlled but I use the meditations to relax now. I changed my focus. I know they don’t put me to sleep, but they relax so as long as I don’t have any expectations of it putting me to sleep, and relax only, it works.
I’ve been learning to not have expectations. Like I don’t go to bed and say I better sleep. I put my meditation in and listen without expectations of it putting me to sleep and I’ve been falling asleep to it!
Hi Martin. I appreciate your reply. My difficult thoughts have been less because I have been sleeping a bit more. And I’ve been practicing gratitude the next day. I did have a bit of panic last night but I slept some. And I thanked my brain and told it to come back tomorrow. My thoughts don’t really race as much anymore when I put my head down. I listen to a meditation called “Acceptance” and I think it helps to relax me. It helps me accept whatever thoughts come up and release worry. I am making progress. But yes reducing the efforts to sleep and accepting my nights as they come have been helpful. I know there’s no such thing as perfect sleep. Some people count sleepless nights as 4 hours or less but I count sleepless nights as not a wink of sleep. So I’ve had 6 consecutive nights with some sleep. I don’t know how much but I know there was some and I’m grateful for some. Some is way better than none.
It was the fear of being up alone while everyone else was sleeping and I was trying to get to sleep. Then I reasoned with myself that my sleep is my own. And my sister’s sleep is her own. We can’t experience each other’s sleep and that took the fear away. And there’s no pressure to sleep. It doesn’t matter who falls asleep first or last.
I appreciate your reply. I know what’s possible yet I still struggle. I have to become one with my mind and body. Sorry to hear that you went through the same. It is tough but the end result will be worth it.
Yes I’ve fallen asleep watching the course. You should record a relaxation tape lol. I’ve fallen asleep to meditations in the past but they haven’t been working lately.
Makes sense. Maybe I’ll stop trying to relax then. Because I didn’t have to intentionally do it before.
In the past, I did not need to try at all. I put my head down and fell right asleep. I know that I can get there again. I just have to make relaxing the goal. I appreciate your question Martin.
Thank you so much. I’m going to keep working on myself as well. I’ve gotten through this before. No reason why I can’t make it through again. I keep telling myself that but then I still get anxious.
Thank you for sharing, Michael. I haven’t found anything to distract my mind. I used to fall asleep to the TV but I’ve developed a fear of listening to the TV as time goes on and I’m still awake. Like if I’m still awake after a 30 minute show goes off. And then another 30 minute show. I would love to relax in front of the TV again at night because that was the only thing that helped me. Well, I still fall asleep in front of the TV but that’s during the 8 PM to 10 PM hour when people are still awake in my house. I tried listening to Moby Dick last night and I had to turn it off. I tried rain sounds, soft piano music and then a Youtube AD disrupted me. I was annoyed. Or I used to fall asleep to a Kundalini Meditation but I started thinking oh what if I’m still awake when it’s over? My problems are being too concerned with the time and being the last one to fall asleep in my house. And I didn’t have those worries before.
I’ve experienced this as well. I wouldn’t think I was sleep but then I recalled a dream so that meant I was sleep. And I would feel myself falling asleep only to wake right back up. Or I would have microsleeps or minidreams.
I can relate to this. I would like my sleep window to be from 12 AM to 6 AM but I end up falling asleep watching TV too. Part of it is the fear that I won’t be tired when my sleep window arrives.
I experience this as well where I am sleepy but can’t fall asleep. It causes anxiety for me so I start focusing on my breathing or grab a meditation. It doesn’t put me to sleep but it does calm me down somewhat. The thing is we can’t try to fall asleep. It just happens. Sometimes it doesn’t happen for me but I have to remember that eventually it will.
