Celebrating 25 nights of sleeping off of restoril 🙂 I the anxiety about sleep had also lessened significantly. While the thought pops up throughout the day and there’s often moments before sleep when they come up, it’s getting easier to hold space for those thoughts and say this is not an insight or premonition but my mind’s way of trying to protect me, thanks mind.
The quality of my sleep has gone up significantly with less and less nights of fragmented sleep. I’m beginning to average around 5 solid hours instead of 4.5 hours which at the beginning was generally what I was getting after the taper. However I never can stay asleep until my 5:30 am wake-up and my cbti provider wants me to get up 3 times every 15 minutes if I can’t fall back asleep.
For me it feels more frustrating and never works. When I wake up around 4:15-:4:45 just knowing I only have about an hour left and doing the every 15 minutes thing I think really stresses me out. I’d rather just rest in bed until 5. I wake up at 4:30 feeling so triumphant and could prob start my day hoping it builds more sleep drive later but then feel obligated to try for longer and then frustrated I can’t get an extra hour in (but I always go back to celebrating what I did get). What sometimes ends up happening is once my alarm goes off at 5:30 I go to the couch and turn it off and the doze off for 30 minutes like l can finally relax knowing the alarm is over. I’m thinking of just making my sleep window 5 and w less pressure hoping I end up over sleeping till that 5:30 window.
My real question is though, for any of you who have recovered, did your sleep solidify before you were able to sleep longer? Like I am content w an average or 5 hours at the moment. The experience of solid sleep is priceless. but I am still hoping my body will naturally get some longer hours down the line but I know I can’t force this.
I’ve heard the quality comes before your body starts allowing for me quantity and I’m just wondering if that has been true for any of you?
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