6 month post course completion

Hi everyone-My sleep issues began in Jan 2023 and quickly escalated to the point where I was in a very dark place. After hours of endless scrolling, Found Martin’s vids on You Tube. It was a game changer. Essentially blew up everything I thought I knew about sleep. Took the “free course” and all seemed well. About 8 months later in the midst of a divorce, selling the home I had for 25 years the bully was knocking on the door again.
Struggled for about a month and a half eventually pulling the trigger on the self paced course. Again, game changer. Much more detail and put more meat on the bones when it came to the hows and why. I immersed myself in the course and like most everyone else says, this is not a linear journey. Three steps forward two back etc. Bottom line I just kept with it using every resource I could including the podcasts,
Funny how in the beginning, listening to others struggles was almost counter productive. Hearing their struggles would really trigger my anxiety. However, I would listen and when they got around to what worked, really felt hope and eventually healing.
Currently I have many more good nights than bad. If I have a bad night or two I try not to ruminate…try is the key word because I sometimes still do. When that happens I go back to my notes from the course and re-read them. I always find something where the light bulb goes on. I realize sleep will never be perfect and DO NOT ENGAGE WITH THE STRUGGLE my brain tries so hard sometimes to get me to do. “There it is, its back, probably going to be really bad this time”. Now I simply thank my brain for doing its job and move on.
Anything worth anything in this life is typically not easy. Stick with it, you are worth it, be kind to yourself along with patience. Take care my friends!