Hello @Kvidder and welcome to the forum. As you have seen from the replies to your post, what you are going through is not unique or unusual — it’s all part of the struggle associated with insomnia.
Many people find that the more they try to fight or avoid wakefulness and the difficult thoughts and feelings that come with it, the more powerful, influential, and difficult nighttime wakefulness and all those thoughts and feelings become — and the more likely they are to get pulled away from doing things that matter, being the person they want to be, and living the kind of life they want to live.
The more willing we can be (which is a skill that requires a lot of practice!) to experience wakefulness and all those difficult thoughts and feelings, the less powerful and influential they might become. This, in turn, can allow us to refocus our attention and our energy to do things that matter, be the person we want to be, and live the kind of life we want to live.
You might find my podcast episode with Maria helpful: How Maria faced the fear of insomnia by allowing it to exist and discovered that all its power came from how she responded to it (#49).
I hope there’s something helpful here.
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