Here I am after another night of sleeping less than 3 hours but I am fine and happy because at least I woke up at my designated time of 5:30.
I am ready to finally try CBT-I all the way.
My problems with insomnia started in August 2019. I was heavily stressed. Financial pressure, job insecurity, pending apartment change, no daycare spot after apartment change and to top it all of I was on a strict diet and working out a lot. To get me even more exhausted after visiting my parents on across the Atlantic my baby did not sleep well anymore waking me up a lot.
Finally my immune system gave out and I got pneumonia which also gave me anxiety. Ever since then the struggle has been constant. Sick all the time and the beautiful sleep I enjoyed for 30 years has vanished. I guess it is anxiety/ stress related. In the meantime most stress factors have dissipated and I am still not sleeping well and catch every cold the little one brings home.
In September I tried CBT-I and it improved my sleep where for the past two months I was getting 4-6 hours of constant sleep. My problem was that I always awoke before the alarm and I was afraid to restrict as much as I should have. I managed to fall asleep at 10 PM on most nights but always woke around 3:30 to 4:30 instead of 5:30. Some nights though I don’t sleep at all.
Now I had a crazy Christmas with the move to the new apartment and NYE hasn’t helped with the sleeping in a hotel and not being disciplined to get up at 5:30.
So here I am back at square one with an sporadic sleep time of around 4.5 to 5 hours currently. This time though I am determined to restrict as much as needed (min 5.5 hours I read) and see if I can wake up at the alarm. Until now I always went for at most 6.5 hours or more and while it improved I never managed to wake up consistently as I ALWAYS woke up before the alarm. Until summer the average sleep I was getting when I slept well was between 7.5 and 8.5 hours depending on the month as calculated by my tracker. Now I do not wear a tracker anymore to not look at clock during night.
Sorry for the rant but I feel like sharing. Finger’s crossed for the next few weeks as I will get serious with a small sleeping window and consistent wake up times.