[Jacob]

Hi guys, i must confess. Nearly month ago my insomnia was nearly gone. I was able to go to the bed and not be really sleepy, but fall asleep with only one waking up during a night, but being able to fall asleep again. Things was nice, but then i start going to new job. And from that time it was not that good.

After two weeks i get ill, wich is happen in life. not problem with that, on the other hand, illnes make me so tired a was able to fall asleep and stay asleep easily, but now i am more or less recovered, but guess it, i cannot fall asleep. I want to reconstruct the situation from month ago. So i go to the bed in 10 pm and want to wake 5:45 am. But problem is, i just cannost fall asleep. Yeah i doing mistake in the way i go to the bed when i am not sleepy, but that was what i do motnh ago and it worked!

Like now is second day i just go to the bed, cannot sleep, so i go to pc watch some show, then go to the bed, cannot sleep, again watch some show and repeat for whhole night and magically, my sleepines doesent kick in, and i dont knwo why… And its easy to loose your belive in sleep in this kind of situation becaouse my sleepines doesent kick in.

What is possible to do in this kind of bad night, to fall back asleep? Like probably i will fall asleep again when i start going to work again, but “probably” Its hard to mentaly recover from two days in row with more or less zero sleep and i know myslef so that doubt will stick with me (its hard to belive in something, that is not happening)

Why its so harder to maintain some sleep order after couple distrubed nights? Like month ago, i even dont need to be sleepy, for fall asleep, but now i cannot do that again. I was just kicked off from my rythm. So what should i do in these kind of nights, where i just cannost get sleepines, even if i am wake up allt the time? Any sugestion? Thanks 🙂

[Chee2308]

Greetings Jacob!

Welcome back! And we all here have already heard about your stories so none of this is new. And it’s also me again replying to you! ?

Why is not sleeping so hard to accept? If you think bad nights give you bad days, challenge yourself and find out whether this is true. So when will you accept that sleep is entirely controlled by your own body and not you? You are trying to fight against your body, against an inexistent enemy. Read up on Angeli’s post, she has had insomnia for decades but recovered after just 2 months of doing nothing. She estimated the money she spent on sleep remedies over the decades is now enough to buy an apartment!

I don’t want to write a long post because my answer is still the same. Do nothing and try to achieve nothing! You know you are recovered when you get bad nights, but it never cross your mind again to seek any kind of help or come here to seek any advice anymore, you just go on your day as usual like nothing happened. This means only a total surrender of the situation and complete acceptance of bad nights that will happen regardless of anything you do or think, only this will truly liberate you from the struggle. Good luck and best wishes!

• This reply was modified 3 years ago by Chee2308.

[Jacob]

Hi Chee, thanks for reply.

Yes. You have true, i only need to remeber 🙂 I know, that CBT-I isnt about controling your sleep, but sleepines. I strugle in life generaly, and thats the reason of my insomnia. My insomnia is only byproduct of my “bad” life. But in past 4 months i done huge progress. I am more financially stable, can take some vaccation, which is something i could not do for like 5 years.. And i experience much sleep improvement because of that.

For me, insomnia is only reflexion of my general anxiety from failing. I am very goal oriented, and everything what blocking me i have tendecy to dismiss, destroy, abandon etc. So, like you say its about surrender these things and accepting chaos of life 🙂

[Chee2308]

Hello Jacob!
I am sure this is only temporary, kinda like hitting a speed bump on the road. Like last time, I am confident you will recover from this also. Then future bad nights will become less bumpy but this experience will better equip you with what it takes to handle future setbacks. Good luck and best wishes!

[Jacob]

Thanks 🙂

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