Hi. My name is Serg. I’m 36 and I have partial insomnia. Especially early awakenings.
My typical night looks like this. I go to bed at 10:30-11pm and every day I gets awake at 3-4-5am and cannot manage to fall asleep again. Therefore I often feel not very good through the day: my muscles don’t recover, I have “stupid” head (it feels like somebody hit me in the head, sometimes i have headache), ear ringing and feeling dry eyes constantly.
Cannot nap at noon as well – cannot manage to fall asleep. I feel tired but not able to fall asleep and just lay in a bed for some time.
Physical activities aren’t helpful, but vice versa: they tend to worse situation, they lead to less sleep at night, and having exhausted feeling next morning. I tried many: workouts, running, various distances – 5 to 20km running, as I said: the more activities – the worse sleep.
Alcohol. 0.5l beer at evening – no help but even worse sleep.
Coffee/tea withdrawal – looks like no effect at all. So, I’m still drinking 1-2 cups of coffee/day because withdrawal takes no effect.
Medications:
Fluoxetine – feel better through the day but no effect on sleep, still wake up early. Stopped taking it.
Mirtazapine 15mg – had helped me for 2 months and stopped its good effect when I started my physical activities again(running and workouts). I’m taking mirtazapine 15mg at evenings bot it feels like it does not help anymore.
Fenazepam (benzodiazepine drug). I took fenazepam only recreational and always had very good effect: at least 8 hours of sleep. But I don’t want to take it regularly because of its benzodiazepine-related withdrawal effect and possible tolerance effect (one time in the future it can stop its positive effect as well).
GP tests showed that I have high systolic blood pressure. Typically 140-90 all day is ok for me. I was prescribed with 5mg amlodipine at mornings for a long time and I’ve been taking it now for 1 year. No other disorders found. My blood tests are fine. My kidneys are fine. I tested almost all other subsystems and no other related disorders were found. One test showed semi-low hemoglobine with normal ferritine and normal iron – still nothing to worry about.
For me it looks like my body doesn’t allow me to function at high speeds. When I’m starting to do something that takes many physical or mental efforts, e.g. regular running, rock climbing, or even stressful work, my body says: “Hey guy you won’t be doing this. You are allowed to go at low paces: read the book, spend most time of your day in a bed, go to shop for 1-2 hours, but forget about anything related to normal active life. Because I just won’t let you sleep enough haha”.
When I read on forums about somebody have depression and don’t want to do anything, don’t have any motication to do anything I found that I have exactly the opposite: I’m full of motivation but unfortunately I’m too tired to do many things because of lack of sleep.
Anybody have the same experience ? What did you do to improve and was it helpful ?