[IvanAleisterMesniaa]

Has anyone felt like their insomnia has taken control of them? If so explain your situations if you please.

I've been absent, I've not been feeling myself, but this just happens a few times a year, I've been going without much sleep lately, it started about five or so days ago.

Throughout these six days I've gotten seven hours sleep.

I was at the local mall two days ago and I had three hours sleep by that time, my leg was killing me, I never ate in a few days, I tried to make the best of the situation but being there from 12:30 to 7:00 was just annoying.

My vision wasn't the best, it was blurry, I was very alert, I wouldn't even drink coffee, and I love coffee, I won a free coffee at Tim Hortons(Coffee doesn't keep me awake longer, it helps me be less stressed if anything).

Know what made it worse my friend Sean had his girlfriend there, she's a stuck up snob who thinks she's so beautiful and great, she is a *insert the B word for female dog here* I flat out told her you really are closed minded, you think all men need to be strong and never cry, that women have kids and clean, don't you want more for yourself, you're such a sad little girl no wonder Seans dating you, he can go to work and you'll have supper cooked and the house clean.

She told me well that's what women are only good for, sex, cooking and cleaning. I was so irritated I flat out told her, you're not as pretty as you think you are, learn to put make up on, you honestly look like a clown, wear pants and a shirt that fit you as well. No one wants to see a 15 year old showing off their body, have respect for yourself.

I got slapped. Don't care, I was rude to her but just close minded women like her really make me mad.

Anyway back to the insomnia. We walked mostly all day due to Sean and his gf, me using my cane and needing a break didn't matter, the fact that my family doctor was in the mall shopping and seen me and sat me down and did a couple of things, like check my eyes and whatnot.

He told me I need to get sleep right away or risk collapsing and tried to take me and check me into the hospital. I said no and he said at least sit down and try to get some fluids and food in your system.

He left and I collapsed, which made a scene and it sucked. This was at 1:30, the rest of the day comprised of my head on my cane whenever I got to sit down, walking and getting asked by security gaurds to empty my pockets, and them being like oh sorry thought you were on drugs.

I got frisked by a police officer who thought I was wired on mushrooms.

I feel depressed and like I'm being taken over by this insomnia, I hallucinated a lot that day, I tried playing pool and air hockey didn't go well.

But it wasn't things like say seeing something move that wasn't, I was hallucinating that my cane was talking to me, Tyler's hair was snakes.

I took sleeping pills when I came home and passed out for hours and hours, woke up felt like I had a hangover, was puking as well.

It's been robbing me of my sanity at moments, and all I need is sleep to cure this but it's like walking towards something as it gets further away and away.

To end this, my insomnia is leaving me in a state where I just look dead.

[mspeekay]

I wish I could write a useful reply to that. Your insomnia is so much more extreme than mine, apart from the fact if I got to the stage you were at I wouldn't have the mental strength to go out – I'd hide in my flat on my own. So give yourself some credit for still trying to function and not giving up.

I do think you should think about what the doctor said though, and consider checking into hospital for a while.

I wish I had something else useful I could say. xx

[IvanAleisterMesniaa]

'mspeekay' wrote on '22:

I wish I could write a useful reply to that. Your insomnia is so much more extreme than mine, apart from the fact if I got to the stage you were at I wouldn't have the mental strength to go out – I'd hide in my flat on my own. So give yourself some credit for still trying to function and not giving up.

I do think you should think about what the doctor said though, and consider checking into hospital for a while.

I wish I had something else useful I could say. xx

Hospital they'd just fill me full of sleeping medicine, which I don't want to have in me, I always wake up really sick no matter what the dosage or type, or I get really high.

Don't worry about it, was just posting it to ask people what's the worst they've gotten and why I've been absent.

If I didn't have the willpower and mental strength I have I wouldn't be able to do pretty much anything.

[Martin Reed]

Thank you for sharing, Franky.

You know, a post like that just shows how devastating insomnia can be – and most people just don't realise this. I hope your sleep is getting a little better – have you thought about staying in when your sleep deprivation is as bad as it was when you went to the mall?

I think this is a good discussion you've started and I hope to see other members chime in with their experiences of insomnia taking control of (or at least influencing) their lives.

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[IvanAleisterMesniaa]

'Martin' wrote on '22:

Thank you for sharing, Franky.

You know, a post like that just shows how devastating insomnia can be – and most people just don't realise this. I hope your sleep is getting a little better – have you thought about staying in when your sleep deprivation is as bad as it was when you went to the mall?

I think this is a good discussion you've started and I hope to see other members chime in with their experiences of insomnia taking control of (or at least influencing) their lives.

I have thought about staying in, I think I will from now on, it's not like I would attack anyone or anything just it's hard to deal with everything.

[emmaree]

Oh Ivan I don't know how you cope, its extreme. I agree with your doctor, and go to the hospital, if nothing else they can put you on IV , strengthen your body again, give you nutrients and fluids you may need. I have only taken medication for insomnia once and it was horrible in the morning, but sleep is better than nothing and even though I felt yuk when I woke up I know that my body did some repair through the night whilst I slept. I have never had it so bad as what you have experienced. I hope things are better for you now. Have you tried alternative medicine It may help? I know for example that people with low vitamin B6 tend to suffer from depression more frequently, I eat heaps of raw cashews daily as they have B6 and rarely get depressed. I don't know I guess you have tried almost everything so this may be total dribble to you, but here's hoping things get better 🙂

[MarinaFournier]

'IvanAleisterMesniaa' wrote on '22:

Know what made it worse my friend Sean had his girlfriend there, she's a stuck up snob who thinks she's so beautiful and great, she is a *insert the B word for female dog here* I flat out told her you really are closed minded, you think all men need to be strong and never cry, that women have kids and clean, don't you want more for yourself, you're such a sad little girl no wonder Seans dating you, he can go to work and you'll have supper cooked and the house clean.

She told me well that's what women are only good for, sex, cooking and cleaning. I was so irritated I flat out told her, you're not as pretty as you think you are, learn to put make up on, you honestly look like a clown, wear pants and a shirt that fit you as well. No one wants to see a 15 year old showing off their body, have respect for yourself.

One of those. Ick. I'd have done the slapping of her.

Anyway back to the insomnia. We walked mostly all day due to Sean and his gf, me using my cane and needing a break didn't matter

The one time I was in Vegas with my husband and a couple-friends, the tram was down, the busses were too few and far between, and lines for the taxis were an hour or more long! Of course, my friend's birthday was 6 January, right in the middle of CES, one of the most crowded times in Vegas. There were two other adult-material conferences as well that weekend.

I'm the short one, with short legs and shoes that never fit quite right (I have hard feet to fit). They're all striding away with their long legs and I'm running to keep up. I tended to get left out of talk between them, as they'd all been there before, and I hadn't: they were employed techies, and I'm not employed nor an engineer. I didn't really get to do anything *I* really wanted to that weekend, either.

The sheets were rough, the bed uncomfortable, my husband annoyed at me because I wasn't enough fun. I got contact dermatitis from the detergent in the linens, and big blisters from my shoes. Didn't sleep well, and wasn't surprised.

To me, who can't understand the why of gambling, it was like being an atheist at the Vatican. One of these days, I'd like to go back with a friend who's more my leg length, when all the transportation systems are working.

To end this, my insomnia is leaving me in a state where I just look dead.

When I've had the acute periods, It's been like that for me, too. Wish I could help.

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