[sleepyjinx]

Hello. I’ve just recently discovered this website and the podcasts and I’m finding them very reassuring. This is not my first time experiencing insomnia, but rather my 3rd. Each time the period it happens goes on longer and gets harder. I would think it would be the opposite because I should be able to tell myself easily, “You’ve done this before, you’ll make it through again.” But I try to explain it to my husband like it’s almost PTSD. Those first two experiences were so traumatic that even though it’s been 6 years since my last spell, right now I’m in the throws of another and once again, I feel like it’s controlling me. The last time it happened, my doctor put my on Lexapro and it resolved itself quickly. I’ve stayed on it ever since, but I think that’s what is making this tougher. I don’t have that “fix.” I do know that I catastrophize things and I’m going to try really hard to “accept insomnia” and not try to fix it. However, my biggest fear, going into psychosis, after several days without sleep is just controlling me. I feel like if I could just get that thought out of my mind that I will be ok. But I’ve read so many things about that happening, and seeing it on forums (that now I realize aren’t helpful) that I feel like I’m so stuck on that fear, I can’t move on. I’m just not in a good head space right now. Any help or positive thoughts would be appreciated!

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