[Rubylight]

Hi everyone, just checking in at the three month mark (three months since finishing the course) to offer hope and encouragement to anyone who’s still in the thick of the struggle. Believe me, I thought I would NEVER get here! After three months, I’m almost back to what I used to call “normal” before the onset of killer insomnia almost two years ago. Time and practice of the skills Martin teaches in the course have really paid off, and I’m left with only a vestigial, easily managed bit of sleep anxiety. I still wake up early more often than not, but the big change is that I just don’t worry about it anymore. I get a good six hours every night—sometimes in three sections—but that’s fine. Sleep just comes for me and knocks me out, instead of me having to chase after it! I truly thought I was a lost cause, but given time, the programme has worked, and there really is hope! I know what it’s like to be in the awful heat of the battle, how horrible and hopeless it feels—I remember!!—so if that’s where you find yourself, hold on! There’s hope! It gets better, it truly does!!!

[Chee2308]

Hello Ruby!

Thank you for sharing your inspiring story. And yes, I still remember your earlier posts when you had a lot of questions and worries which seemed so scary then, well what a difference of night and day, and they do seem so insignificant now, don’t they? But ultimately, if you ask the same questions today, do you think you have the answers now? Or do you feel like even if you have the right answers, they don’t really matter anymore and therefore asking them isn’t so important after all… And this is exactly where aspiring recovering insomniacs should strive to achieve, an attitude of nonchalance and indifference. Whatever worries or the thousands of questions anyone who suffers from insomnia have, the ultimate remedy is to learn to be undaunted by them, to let them somehow just sink into the back of your mind into oblivion because you know and understand sleep so much better now, that it was never in your control in the first place and your worries had been unsubstantiated and unnecessary after all. I might say it has been a hoax all along.

Congratulations on your recovery and good luck! As long as you don’t fret over the occasional bouts of sleeplessness which EVERYONE will get, including good sleepers, you will continue to do very well indeed.

[Rubylight]

You’re exactly right, Chee2308…I think I pretty much have the answers now but I don’t care any more. Because the answer is: Don’t care anymore! Don’t fret, don’t worry! It seems to work almost like magic. And it’s funny, because this is the place we all want to get to, but you can only get to it by not trying to get here! Very Zen!!

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