I keep one. I lost all of them, I had about 15 books filled, I kept one for six years, it didn't help me sleep any better but it did help me keep track of how much I slept and what I was thinking.
I have an entry from one night saved on my computer.
October 30th 2008
I laid down in my bed for what seemed to be days, I laid and laid but no sleep came, my room pitch black, it's been three days since I slept, I can hear the cat in the living room purring, the taps dripping, I am all alone, my parents at the hospital with my sister, complete darkness.
Sometimes I wonder how sane I am, I see things that aren't there, I visualize things, I'll find a crack in a wall and visualize it spreading out into more cracks, and a pounding on the other side of the wall, with the final crack the wall crumbles and everything goes white.
I visualize the world in complete whiteness, there I stand alone creating a bed for me to sleep.
Tomorrow is Halloween and Mitchell and I will start at 9:30, setting all our creepy things up and come 2:00 we are ready awaiting for the children, hidden in the crowd of gas masked monsters.
Halloween house it is called, 500+ people a year we get, we're on the news every year, the things we build, and do is fantastic.
I'm going to type this onto the computer and save it, this entry has no importance, just another washed up relic I will look back in a year or so.
Sometimes I wonder if I'm pretending to be sane or if I am sane trapped in an insane world.