[kayjdasilva]

I’ve had some very brief struggles with not sleeping well in the past before I had my baby 2 months ago. I found this site, listened to the podcast, did the email course, and I had pretty effortless sleep most of my pregnancy (and honestly 97% of my life before then). Since he’s gotten here I feel like I’ve been all over the map. I woke up to feed him and lay down to try and sleep. I try to keep expectations low (“let’s just see what happens”), but got this wave of rage. Everyone in the house is sleeping but me. The baby, my husband, the dog. In an effort to befriend wakefulness i went and tried watching tv but that just made me more angry. Tried doing some dishes, writing in my journal, I started crying and couldn’t stop.
My midwife offered an antidepressant, my doctor suggested unisom. I know from what I’ve learned here those might or might not work, and if they do they might not work long. I feel like everything I want to do is wrong. I’ve gotten so turned around and I feel really hopeless.

[Rach]

Aw this is so real and you are not alone! It is awful when you feel so alone in the night and especially when you have the added pressure of knowing you only have a certain amount of time until your baby needs you again. I had exactly the same thing. I managed without meds and have also heard this is not a long term solution but also whilst you are in the thick of it with a newborn baby, this may not be the worst idea. However, do try other things too. I always find getting my emotions out helps, have a cry, scream into a pillow, wake your partner up and talk to them. Im sure you know all the other techniques if your on this forum but trying a bit of radical acceptance or whatever we call it here can really work. Try not to panic, your not alone and it will get better!

[Histiocytosis]

Hang in there..my daughter came home with her two year old and four month old baby from overseas. She was exhausted from a long flight with one screaming child and then had to deal with a five hour jet lag. Her baby was up three or four times a night. A good night would happen now and then but mu dtr. did not know when I good night would occur and would lie in bed until two or three in the a.m. waiting for her baby to wake up. She was so tired she forgot how to sleep. It is now three months later and things have improved a lot. Not perfection but once children enter the picture sleep is more fragile anyway. You will do it!

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