Hello,
Last week, I began a CBT-I program through the University of Pennsylvania after having struggled with severe, chronic insomnia for 33 months. I am looking for additional support and guidance to help me regain my confidence that I can in fact sleep again as I never had issues before this.
It all started with a panic attack due to a physical injury that brought on anxiety and insomnia. It was as if my nervous system broke down. After 6 weeks of trying to get my sleep back, I caved in and began trialing meditations. It was horrible. Everything gave me side effects and made my anxiety worse. I eventually stopped after 11 months and took an additional 5 months to taper off the benzo I was on. Benzo withdrawal was nothing short of hell for me.
I am now 15 months off and my remaining issue is still the insomnia. Not surprising. My average sleep in 4.3 hours a night and my sleep efficiency was 55% last week.
Last night was my first night of sleep restriction. I only got a little over 3 hours. I’m trying to dig deep and find the perseverance and bravery to stick with this program and believe that I can get my life back.
I’ve suffered greatly because of my insomnia. I had to walk away from a job of 20 years and this has greatly impacted my family and marriage. I won’t give up on this as I believe it will work. Just trying my best to remain hopeful.
Thank you in advance to anyone who replies.