Hi everyone
My issue with insomnia has accelerated since starting my new job 6 months ago.
I used to wake up 10-15 minutes before my alarm with my old job which was manageable. With my new role, I am managing a small team – which is something I have never done. I do not get a lot of feedback from my manager I.e. impossible to know whether I’m doing the right things as he is so busy, particularly as I haven’t had management training. I’m not the best with conflict, and never really had an interest in management, but wanted to give it a try as the next step in my career. The difficulty I have now is that there are limited roles in my field for the salary I am earning, this adds to my worries.
At this point, I am waking up around 3 hours before my alarm, and am unable to go back to sleep, I have racing negative thoughts about work. Using apps like Headspace has helped a bit, but I’ll never fall back into a deep sleep, maybe a light doze. I have no real issue going to sleep, its just sleeping through is the issue.
I have tried different things I.e. no caffeine, no phones or screens in the bedroom, bath before bed, Headspace, but these aren’t helping me stay asleep. I am then starting the day with a low mood, being forgetful and sluggish throughout the day. Not good for work and home life.
The only thing I haven’t tried maintaining its exercise, but as I get home so late from work I’m usually too tired to do this.
Any advice on trying to break this awaking early cycle would be greatly appreciated. It feels like I’m going round in circles of predominantly depressive symptoms, a bit of anxiety and insomnia, all feeding into each other…
I am looking at changing jobs, but feel this may be running away from the issue. I feel like I have had had minor depressive and anxiety symptoms over the years, and its starting to catch up with me, I feel like I may be in a bit of denial about any possible mental health diagnosis.
Thank you