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I’ve been on klonopin for a year.When i stopped taking it,in few days I ended with seizures.
Imho dangerous drugs,very.
Tried to tapper off but gives huge anxiety,nervous breakdowns and I can’t remember what else.
It’s the only drug which gives me the sleep,but I’d say bad sleep because I wake up tired,exhausted,not fresh at all,and groggy.
So far it’s the only pill that gives me sleep,so I’m still using it,and I’m not at the big dosage,1mg in the evening.
How long you take it,and what dossage?
Someone wrote that the main cause of my insomnia is shiftwork disorder.
Well I am off work for over a month and still can’t can’t fall asleep.
So,what now?
If the shiftwork is the cause,I don’t work now.
I’m reading a book effortless sleep method and I’m in the middle of it.
I really haven’t found that much in this book,I mean it is not helping me at all.
My problem is completly different from his,but I will accept advices which he was writting in the book.
I can’t fall asleep at all.This is very concerning to me,and I am affrraid a lot that I will get total sleep deprivation.Then suicide thoughts come to my mind because of huge depression and lack of sleep probably.
I’m so scared,I will go crazy,if I will suffer from the rest of my life.I’m off work and that is even a huge punch to me,because I feel worthless every day of my life.
I try to get any activity during day,but no matter what I still can’t fall asleep.
Pills so far work but only for 3-4 hours and I take them late because I am trying to sleep without them but I can’t.
Doctors ain’t helping me and I know they can’t.I expected maybe too much from them,but from last doctor I’ve been told that nobody can help me with this disease and that punched me like a sledgehammer.
I cry a lot these days,I lost job,lost friends,lost sleep most importantly.
Don’t know what else is left for me to try.
I forget things,my concentration is very low,and I make mistakes in everyday,like want to print a paper but didn’t put it in the machine and that stuff.I can’t recognize my self anymore,and that hurts me a lot,I became other person since this disease took me,and that hurts me a lot.
I downloaded I found other books,and tell me,how do I live with this thing,please?
Well I sleep less and less few days ago back at hospital 10 mg of valium i.m. knocked me down for 7 hours.
Then I came home continued taking remeron+1mg of klonopin and it gave me like 5 h of sleep.
But in past few days I slept less and less and last night only 2.5 hours.
What is happening to me?
I’m so affraid I will loose sleep forever or get a total sleep deprivation!!
The only thing what is new is I started taking Zoloft in the morning,but please please don’t tell me he gives me insomnia.Because I’m so depressed when not taking a.d. with this horrible insomnia that I can’t stand it anymore.I started reading book The Effortless Sleep…but I don’t know some things in that book makes me hard to believe that so easily sleep got to that guy so I quit.Seems so unreal that he got he sleep back.
I think this will end up in total sleep deprivation,but please God don’t make me so.
I had problems before with Escitalopram 20 mg for 2 years I was waking up at 2:30 for no reason,and when I quit escitalopram I could sleep until 5 a.m.
Now in few days back I was waking up around 3:30 always,then at 2:30 and last night at around 1 a.m.
Even 10 mg of valium plus 1 mog of klonopin couldn’t knock me back to sleep.
What should I do.I’mm off work for 3 weeks.Should I maybe stop taking all meds and pray to God to get at least 4 h of normal sleep without meds?
I must go to hospital in the next few days,where neurologists will try to see what can be done for me.
I don’t expect anything at all,since I see you guys struggling with this evil.
My life has become horrible and agony.I sleep 3 hours per night on mirtazapine,last night barely 2 hours.
I’m tired,exhausted,having dissociative simptoms and cognitive difficulties.
Yesterday I just fell on the concrete while waiting for a friend to come,then I started to tremble and shake and cry.There is no help,I visited many doctors no one could help me.
Insomnia is tough than it was ever before.Seems to me like shift work did the damage so as constant stress in last few weeks.
I became terrified of reading everything about sleep deprivation,posts of others,afraid of night coming and even going to bed since I know what waits for me at that night.
The worse thing is exhaustion,sleepiness over day,but when I lay on bed my brain simply won’t shut off no matter how tired I am,I can not fall asleep,and that makes me thinking about suicide.
So I must know If quiting a job would make things better for me,I mean would my brain start to function normal,that circadian rhytm.
The odd thing is that id didn’t happen to me,even when I was off-work for months.
So seems like this is double edge sword,quitting a job I would loose $,but would I finally manage to sleep normally at least 4 hours.None of the doctors told me what to do,but if this became chronic then I can’t go to work at all,no matter changing the job or not,if I would find another job,that would be very hard for me.
Seems like there is no help for me…
I lost 15 kg for like 3 months.What’s next. diabetes,cancer,thyroid symptoms? 🙁
This is really serious.Seems to me like my brain doesn’t know when to sleep and when not.
I had to take 50 mg of clozapine last night to sleep,otherwise I would maybe fall down on concrete like last time after 2 night shfits.
But drowsiness is huge issue for me.It’s 5 p.m now,I took it last night at 8 p.m and I still feel little bit odd.
This shit just makes you want to wire yourself on bed.
I’m scared because I can’t find another job with this diploma.
For sure shift work makes thing worse for me with insomnia but seems to me damaged is already made long time ago,and no one is 100 % sure if I can even work 7-15 p.m and if my circadian rhytm will ever come back to normal.
Came from night shift yesterday,took 7.5 mg of remeron and slept for 3 hours before noon.
Came from night shift this morning,very exhausted and tired.Took again same med,no sleep at all.
I feel very tired,drowsy,having breathing problems and cough,and feeling like I’m drunk.
This is becoming terrifying to me and exhausting me really bad.
This med helped me sleep before although I felt drowsy tommorow.
Now nothing.God,please don’t make me suffer anymore!
I’m scared,scared that this is becoming more worse and worse.
I hate my bed,my bedroom,and hate when the night comes.
Guys what should I do?
There is a strange feeling which worries me a lot.
For days I feel like I’m in some king of fog,like I’m half in sleep half in awake state,like I’m drunk,it’s hard for me to concentrate on anything,but me memory is relatively ok.Although I make a lot of mistakes at work.
I told my psychiatrists about this,but she told me not to worry about it.
This feeling worries me a lot,it has never been like this before,and then suicide thoughts come to my mind.
Is my brain shutting down,and damaging it’s self?I don’t want to suffer anymore,and feel like this.
I take 1 mg of klonopin+5 mg of mogadon in the evening which is not high dosage but I keep awakening at around 5 am with like 4-5 hours of sleep only.
I never felt like this before.I used to take 3 mg of klonopin for weeks and didn’t feel like this.
Guys,is it something serious?Tonight nighshift and I’m sick of it already,but don’t have choice because I know with/without work I can’t sleep.
Maybe I need to quit the work,but no one frm doctors is like 100 % sure if my sleep will ever come back,besides I would fall in severe depression.
But working in nightshift is not solution anymore and I’m really afraid of serious mental illnesses (psychosis,dissociative disorder) and permanent brain damage.
So seems to me by this neurologists which did the exam I have this disease:
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Circadian_rhythm_sleep_disorder
And my brain simply doesn’t know when to sleep and when not.
I asked how do I cure it,if it’s helpful if I quit shiftwork but he told me he ain’t so sure if I will be able even to work normally 7-15 p.m.
He asked me to do neurotransmitter tests, serotonin,dopamine and norepinephrine in the blood.
I still cry because seems to be this diagnosis is not curable at all.
I really don’t want to suffer anymore if there is no cure for this,what’s left for me is suicide!
So I had to go to work,so drowsy and tired.I took 7.5 mg of nitrazepam and 1 mg of klonopin and slept at work for 4 hours.Then I came home feeling very tired and drowsy.
Went to bed around 8 a.m. I think I was like in half sleep half awake stage,but dad told me I slept for 2 hours.
I don’t feel amazing good,but I feel more rested then days before.
On Monday I will give a chance to one famous doctor here who is neurologists and who helped many people here,although not with insomnia but with various neurological diseases.
I will pay for exam,for 20-30 min a lot,but he is so far my last chance.Dear God,I just wish he doesn’t tell me like others I’m not somnologists and I can’t help you.That would make my depression very severe.
As for psychiatric yard the chief told me,the only way to help me is to stay in a hospital for a while,but that would be my forth time,and last 3 times they really didn’t help me.
Sadly they threat me with psychiatric diagnosis,but sadly it all started with insomnia so basically they cure the consequences but not the cause.
I need to make decision should I stay in hospital or not,because that is so far the only way to get me off work for like 3-4 weeks,but then again I don’t want them to drug me with all those meds like they did before.
So,today I’ve been to psychiatric hospital and the only solution for me what they can do is for me to stay in hospital again.But that would be for fifth time,and probably they would drug me with meds like they did before with no psychotherapy at all.
But that was not solution before and it’s not solution is the future.
I hope you guys agree or not?
I’ve been told that nothing else can they do for me,can give me seroquel 25 mg which I avoided because it makes me groggy all day long and shrink wrote that patient doesn’t want to co-operate and take meds.
So seems to me all hell broke loose on me.Last night I slept like 3 hours and next 2 nights I work nightshifts.
God,help me please!!
I can’t stop visiting doctors thiking they can help me.
I give all my money to their exams but so far none of them helped.
Yesterday I got an e-mail from clinic in Croatia where they would appoint me to come to Tuesday.
I gave up,because 2 reasons,the doctor is psychiatrist,I mean it’s listed he is somnologists but he is very young and second reason
A trip would cost me a lot and it’v very exhausting to travel for me for 10 hours in one day.
I mean,did doctors helped you guys,any of them??Should I finally tell my self stop going to all those doctors they can’t help you in your chronic insomnia?!
I mean I changed like 20 doctors,all telling me same story,some giving pills,some telling me there is no help.
Took mirtazapine for 2 months,I felt very drowsy,then increased the dose to 15 mg in 2 weeks,and then it coudn’t make me fall asleep at all.It worked for like 2.5 months back in 2017 I think.
The worse part is I feel somehow strange over past 3 days,including today.
I feel like I’m not myself,like I’m in some sort of brain fog,and it’s hard for me to concentrate at anything,watching TV,reading book.Wtf is that?
I know it’s a feeling of derealisation,it’s not really first time this happens to me,I hope it will pass.
Maybe of all that tiredness,my brain is reacting like this.
jazzcat22 thx for the book…
