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As an original 10 of the insomnialand beta I Welcome you to our humble home, pleasure to meet you, and enjoy your time here, if not go ask Lindsay for some fun, she's full of it!
'Martin' wrote on '12:I look up to 'regular' people that make positive changes and take positive risks. When I see people fed up with their jobs and decide to make a go of working for themselves, I admire them. When I see people stuck in a rut decide to go travel the world, I admire them.
I guess my role models are just people that follow their dreams – regardless of where that leads them.
I would have to agree with Martin, I look up to Martin, he's not some super hyped up blogger(I see lots who are just bat crazy) or someone famous, he's a normal guy doing something amazing and is an honest bloke.
Now I will not lie I'm not a like able guy people say I intimidate people because I say what I want, I'm not fake, I don't hold anything back but those who do get to know me value me, I'm blunt cynical, misanthropic, I'm House exactly as people say, always have been and I bet I always will be this way, but I enjoy finding people like Martin who can bring people together for something like this the friends I made here I would never give up and I have him to thank for the rest of my life.
I also look up to people as my hero's, role models etc when they go through hardships and get over it, I don't mean think positive, I mean when people go through something like a parent with a mental illness, like when my mother tortured me for years due to her mental illness the things I went through that I haven't felt strong enough to talk about, I don't know if I ever will be strong enough to talk about some of the worst things, but I got over it, I had to.
I look up to people who overcome things that some people just can't or won't.
I only have a few heroes that are famous, Steve Irwin, George Carlin and Hideo Kojima(Famous for the MGS series) I love those games so much, mean more to me than some people I know, when I had a hard life I had those games.
Another would be Jim Carroll, I only heard of him last year through my friend Tyler and instantly fell in love with People Who Died, because it's so similar to how I've had a few friends die, suicide, one to drugs, another of cancer. I would consider him someone I look up to or a hero.
And my biggest hero and person I look up to is Tyler, we went to the same school when we were younger, and same junior high school, he dropped out and got into drugs heavily and became an addict, he was into everything except needles, I didnt know him a huge amount, just to say hi, and I remember he messaged me out of the blue on msn(he got my email of my cousin who was his neighbor) and we started talking and I remember he told me when he was leaving for Choices(rehab clinic) and he came back clean and hasn't touched anything since(nearly two years).
He means more to me than any other friend because of what he did, him and I only started hanging out in mid 09 and it's been the fastest growing and best friendship I've ever had.
I value him and look up to him like no other and I have told him he won't go back down the road of drugs cause I won't let him, I'll smack sense into him literally if I have to and he said he would want it.
That's pretty much it.
'emmaree' wrote on '13:to give the face muscles a much needed workout.
why are deserts hot in the day time and freezing at night?
Because at night the moon lowers it's temperature because Sand wouldn't marry the moon.
Why is coffee so amazing?
Problems are here because we let them. We all need to make a choice between letting go and holding on.
There's no such thing in the world as true soulmates. Most of what you feel is actually a lie.
What you think you want is only the standard that the rest of the world has.
The true test of a man isn't how he treats loved ones, it's how he treats those who make him suffer.
Were all liars, and when you break it down there is no perfect person for each of us, there is only people and what we make of them.
What we do does not define us, it is how we do it, and how we use the time we have left…and live.
^^ By me.
Here's my one cent since I need the other cent to throw at little whipper snappers!
emmaree- I like the way that all your posts put a smile on my face.
Lindsay- Helped kept me going, and ALWAYS fun to talk to, always up for webcamming with me and always makes me laugh.
Yamerias- Hilarious bloke, great friend and fun to talk to, and the dude loves Transformers, perfect in my books<3
Cynthia- Beautifullllll girl<3 Fun to talk to and fun to cam with, always has something great to say.
Martin- Amazing man right, too bad for his wife I'm stealing him haha. Put this website together and got us all together for a cause, talented and sincere. Great friend.
'Martin' wrote on '19:Ha! You'll need to do the whole speech – I don't just want the question. Make me feel special 😉
Martin, these past few months have been something magical, you brightened my life like a comet in the dark sky, without you life would be in shambles, will you martin take me as your husband in sickness and in health, forever and ever(at least until Hugh laurie marries me) will you marry me? haha!
'Martin' wrote on '16:This is awesome, I didn't realize just how many new friendships we were creating – especially so early on in the project.
Looking forward to more input on this thread from other members.
Martin it's more than friendship, *gets down on one knee* Will you marry me?
Haha! Yeah there are a lot of friendships happening, Cynthia and I talk a fair bit, and Lindsay and I are ALWAYS talking and webcamming and making fun of each other, she's great, life long friend!
I don't mind the word and I do label myself an insomniac and have been diagnosed with chronic insomnia that goes through stages, if people call me it I am fine with that too, as long as they don't make it negative, like oh Franky has insomnia he might stab you never know how well minded he is.
I just don't like oh everyone has got insomnia, yes maybe a form, since it just doesn't mean not sleeping, it is a wide variety of things, but when people say oh I know what you mean with your lack of sleep franky I don't sleep either, it gets on my nerves when I know they just sit on the pc all night and force themselves awake, I'm on the pc all night because I can't sleep, and when I can sleep I get signals pretty much, when I am able to sleep I'll yawn a lot, like nonstop and find myself writing the word sleep a lot! Odd isn't it!
But when I say I have insomnia I mean it, I sleep maybe 1-3 hours a night and that's lucky, then I'll have days where I just don't sleep for a day or two at all, then I have broken sleep, sleep an hour awake for like 10-20 minutes sleep an hour, then back to 1-3 hours sleep a night etc.
To end, I don't mind being labeled an insomniac because I am one, as long as they aren't calling me crazy, and I do not like people trying to say they have it when they don't.
'LindsayK' wrote on '15:The only one I knew before the launch was you, Martin.
Now, however, there are friendships you couldn't pay me to give up.
Yeah, you know you wanna pay to get rid of me *poke*
'Martin' wrote on '08:Are all your tattoos just going to be words, Franky or are you going for any images, too?
I had never thought about tattoos in the way you describe – seeing the pain as an integral part of the process and having a huge amount of meaning. I wonder if others feel the same way.
I know Lindsay is getting new tattoos today and tomorrow and look forward to seeing the pictures!
Lindsay's Tattoo is awesome!
The one I decided to be for all my friends who have died from drug addictions and the ones who've beaten it is an image and I'll design it myself in my head and have my sister who's an artist draw it out.
I think Tattoo's are about expression, a lot of today's culture just get them to conform, every girl I went to school with and I mean it, has a star and butterfly tattoo, people who want to get a tattoo can get whatever they want, as long as they know the consequences.
To me Tattoo's besides being about expression are a way to memorialize someone dear to you.
The pain from the tattoo's is going to have meaning in it's own way, and the tattoo's will have meaning to me in their own way.
I'm getting a few, I already have the dates set up with a professional.
I'm getting this on my left arm.
“Given the choice between the experience of pain and nothing, I would choose pain”-William Faulkner
This on my right arm.
“Those who do not feel pain seldom think that it is felt.” – Dr Samuel Johnson
These represent the physical pain I go through and others go through and shows that no one is alone with pain even when they think they are.
Also to represent how a lot of people think pain is easy to deal with, people say to me all the time, just deal with it, it's not as bad as you think, um yeah it is, you're not going through what I am.
I'm also getting a tattoo to represent my dead friend john who killed himself with 24 Oxycontin(I hear different stories about how much he took). His parents say it was 80 since he bought a bottle of 80 of them and it was empty, they only found 24 in his body, autopsy right away. Either way he drank a bottle of wine and killed himself, he couldn't beat his drug addiction.
Always told me if he ever killed himself never to do anything nice for him because he wouldn't deserve it. So I'm thinking of just getting a tattoo that represents drug addiction and people losing and winning against, since i have a few friends who lost and a few who won.
My sister is going to help me design the tattoo.
I'm also going to get lyrics from the song People who died by Jim Carroll.
They are “Those are people who died, died They were all my friends, and they died” as a rememberance to my friends who have died.
I want another one on my neck as well and I want to design that as well but I am not sure what I want it to be at all.
'LindsayK' wrote on '06:Does it work? Cause if I could get someone to throw geese at people, my life would be complete.
It works.
'Martin' wrote on '05:Hey Ursula!
We've been missing you, too! You must try to get on here at least a few minutes per week otherwise we have zombie-withdrawal symptoms.
Oh, and Franky, you need to watch out for that Lindsay – she's a trouble maker!!
I know! She's always trying to get me to break things and hurt people, she gets me on webcam and says mean thinsg and tries to make me cry 🙁
I”ve been around, I talk to Lindsay everyday pretty much and we webcam and make fun of each other as well.
I had a really bad insomnia thing a month or two ago, I got over that and I just lost myself, I'm still finding myself, every thing in my life that has happened that I've mentioned, things I didn't mention and never will tell another soul, have been getting to me, life caught up to me I guess, I'm dealing with my leg and back pain getting to me, I will get more sleep but have less energy be drained, I never get ahead, I also working on a web comic right now managing it all out and getting ready to write it and have it drawn up.
