I got the two week emails and wow what a difference. I have been struggling with a bad case of insomnia for 2 years. Doctor put me on bp medicine and I must have been allergic, I did not sleep any that night, he tried me on 2 more, same thing. I had never had a hard time. I was a wonderful sleeper til then. I was taken off the bp medicine, another doctor said I just had that white coat syndrome and my bp was not even a problem.
By then I could not sleep, it has been a nightmare, up all night, tossing and turning. I worried I would never sleep again. I could really relate to when Bryan said he got allergic to medicine when he got sick and then got insomnia. I think it was #61 post.
I decided to just say well if I sleep I sleep and if not sleep will come eventually. No more saying oh no what if I dont sleep tonight. I was afraid I would have a stroke or heart attack if I did not sleep. Now I know sleep will come eventually. Martin Reed gave me so much peace when he said this.
I got off trazadone, then benadryl I tried and that quit working so I did not take anything one night and slept good. Before this I was afraid to not take something. A couple of nights I took one benadryl and one night I took an ibuprofen. Then I didnt need anything and I slept all night. No tossing and turning, it is wonderful.
I began to wake up earlier in the morning than I wanted to but when I stayed up an hour later that worked out also. I sleep 12-7. It is hard to believe worry could cause you not to sleep. I didnt have anything to worry about except worried I couldnt sleep. Now I reassure myself I can sleep.
I am looking forward to a beach trip next week. I use to be scared I would not sleep but now I am living life whether I sleep or not. I am just allowing sleep to come when it wants to. If I dont sleep well one night as well it is no big deal, sleep will come back. This has given me so much peace. I also realize I am not alone, so many people have had insomnia, who knew?
Looking at all my successful nights this month has helped me know I can sleep. What a miracle! Thanks so much Martin Reed and also for sending me emails which have helped so much.