[Evie]

Hi. I’ve dealt with insomnia on and off for almost my whole life.
I’ve been listening to some of the podcasts here and I can so relate to the description of the problem.
But what I can’t relate to is the following: Most of the people interviewed come to the realization that it’s not so bad when they don’t get sleep.
The problem is I hate the way I feel during the day when I don’t get sleep and this is a big driver of my insomnia. Even if I manage to get through the day doing all the things I would normally do, I feel horrible and when I look back at those days, it almost seems like a trauma.
My level of tolerance to everything is very low. My clothes feel tight, my skin feels dry, I have digestion problems, I can’t tolerate being around people etc etc.
The funny thing is that I don’t even have bad nights so often compared to a lot of the other people here. But when I do, the next day I become convinced that I will never a good night again (and then I usually do until the next time).
I pretty much dread every important event in my life because I’m convinced I won’t sleep the night before and I won’t be able to function. Funny thing is it usually doesn’t happen.
So the main question is, how can I convince myself it will be ok if I don’t sleep when experience proves me otherwise?

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I cant relate to having insomnia my whole life, 2 years was definitely rough enough. I know it is a terrible feeling the next day when you cant sleep. I was so upset thinking something bad will happen if I dont sleep and then I would not sleep, one time for 3 days.

When i listened to the videos Martin Reed puts out he says I will sleep again and finding out so many had this problem. Now I know I will sleep eventually. If I have a bad night which I have not had in a long time I know I will sleep. The sleep drives builds up and I sleep. I went on with my life sleep or no sleep even if I felt bad and it just straightened itself out. I do feel fortunate after the 2 weeks of emails I started sleeping and living my life. I had to let go and what will be will be. I certainly could not control it. If I am not sleeping I lay there and relax and drift off and sleep. I do know not sleeping sucks and makes you feel like a zombie the next day. I go to bed at 12 and sleep til 6 or 7 am, I am so glad I found this website and Martin Reed. It just clicked so fast with me. I guess just knowing I will sleep eventually, doing nothing and my sleep comes back. It does seem weird but not fighting it is what worked.

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