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Oh, oh, sleepy patch….
Just had a hot bath, as the lure of the sofa and bed were becoming too much to bear…
Back at the kitchen table now, having some breakfast while I work…
It's about to go 9am – so I have a whole 9 hours to go, before I'm allowed a “nap”/ snooze…. Waaaaahhhhh!! 🙁
That's a long time!
Maybe I will do my nice exercise/ relax video in a bit… just have to be careful not to fall asleep at the end of it – have to be VERY VERY careful – as they do a lovely relaxy bit in it…
Well, I figure if I get desperate and the sleep sirens start lulling me in with their song, I will come here and post my insomnia madness, in a desparate attempt to stay “UP”….
Have a lovely Sunday,
from Groggy, who is currently VERTICAL – and plans to stay that way!!!!
XXX
WELL DONE YOU . . . I am most impressed you were up so early yet disappointed that I didn't realise you were up and posting.
I got up early doors and have been beavering away on the book which is really starting to take shape now ! I left the iPal upstairs so I didn't realise you had posted as the laptop doesn't beep when a message comes in like the iPal does and I didn't log onto e-mails so I wouldn't be distracted.
Poor old Mr M came in bed for a cuddle at 5.40 am but my mind was whizzing so I got up . . . ooops ! He will thank me when we are millionaires . . . plus he got on my nerves yesterday so heigh ho . . . go with the flow !
We are going out for lunch today so I should really think about jumping in the shower and doing major refurb works on my face and hair !
Keep vertical and remember . . . we are on our way and need to take it one day at a time sweet Jesus !
Tired Teddy x
Hello there!!
I was busy working all day – well most of it – I did have a 2 hour nap this afternoon, but I think it was a “good” kind of nap – where you're a little sleepy from working all day, have a brief snooze and then keep carrying on…
Not the bad kind, where I get all sooky and cranky and sleep for ages and then am often still cranky and sooky! Ugh!
So I got a lot done today, but not much time to frivol away on the internet… poop… haha…
Can't believe you are writing a book! This has obviously unleashed a flurry of creative activity in you!!!
Well, I'm currently totally indecisive of what to do – I'm sort of in a sleepy patch, but still need to do a few things before nodding off, by which time I won't be sleepy anymore… yada yada yada…
Have a lovely Sunday night!!
🙂 Groggy
Woohoo, just made some good progress on the purse (I think… I'm still cutting the pattern (making it up as I go along) and cutting the material and fastening it together and ironing that stiffening stuff on the back of it, etc)
So the proof will be in the pudding – in assembling all the bits and hoping they fit… hmmm…
If it doesn't work, I think I'll just go and buy a really crap, cheap purse for 4.99 € somewhere, haha.
I ended up having a bit of an intense day in the end. A friend came by and I'm helping her with the paperwork of starting her own business and that sort of stuff is so complicated and confusing and emotional (cos so much depends on it) and even though it went well (better than expected, even) I'm still a bit, I dunno… kerfuffled up inside… I guess my brain just keeps on running in that “furiously concentrating” mode… even tho I've “decided” it's now time for bed, my brain is raring to go, saying “Gimme some book-keeping to do!! I'll have it done in a jiffy!!” 🙄
Which could be good, I gues… I have a large-ish pile of my own undone book-keeping/ accounting sitting in my office… :wacko:
But nah, who wants to spend the night doing accounting, ffs?? (Yeah, well, apart from my brain…!)
See how I go I guess… Not sure my brain realises we have another 6am wake-up ahead of us… 😛
I was thinking earlier that I'm intrigued that Martin's insomnia solution seems to be not so much “fixing” the not-falling-asleep, but rather not getting so upset about it and managing better with the consequences of it (next-day-tiredness)…
So, I guess in that sense it's not what I had “hoped” for (yet?) in that I'm not really falling asleep any earlier (yet?) but *am* feeling much better overall and more relaxed and less like my sleep (or non-sleep) is *controlling* me and my life… I guess the (non-)sleep issue isn't as dominant for me now, as it used to be… which is GREAT! (Thank you Martin!!!)
At the same time, I guess I'm still “hopeful” that something aking to “earlier sleep” or “easier falling asleep” will set in sometime down the track… tho I guess if this is a long process of teaching my brain new habits (when it's spent a life time learning the “opposite” ones…) it's going to take a while and I suppose I don't mind giving it, say, 6 months… You know, try sleep hygiene rules (for me most importantly UP EARLY and NO NAPPING) for 6 months and then seeing if my sleep times slowly start adjusting and improving…
But the prospect of facing the next 6 months or so with little/ irregular sleep doesn't feel as threatening and exhausting as it used to…
In fact people have been commenting in surprise how “fine” I look when I tell them things like “I only got 3 hours sleep the last 3 nights running” and am looking quite cheerful and relaxed while saying it… haha. That's making a nice change!! Guess I might not get those frown wrinkles 😡 quite so soon after all?!?! HAHA
…Oof, now I've paused mid-ramble and forgotten what I was talking about…! Pffft.
Probably a good place to sign off for the night then!!
Have a good start to your week and wishing you an easy day…
XXX Groggy (who did a lot of dancing again this morning and is not sure her neighbour appreciated the semi-loud radio at 7am on a Sunday… but tough luck, why should I have all the insomnia – I figure she can have a bit of mine… aren't I nice, sharing like that?!?!) 😆
Well that was a very positive post Groz and it is good to hear that you are looking at lack of night time sleep in a different way.
I do think that that is Martins theory and that is what has happened for me . . . I think the idea is that you learn to not worry about not sleeping so much and gradually accept it to the point that before you know it your sleep is where it should be. I think it is mind over matter and that it will probably never go per se but it will become our norm, which may not be the same as non-insomniacs but acceptable for us. Acceptance is so much better than frustration and works much better for sleeping.
I think expecting your new sleep regime to possibly take 6 months to kick in is a great idea . . . You have had insomnia sooooo long so it is naturally going to take some beating . . . I am happy for such a great improvement so far and Like you people have noticed I look and seem better so how much more could we hope for in such a short period of time . . . We only joined Insomnia Land a few weeks ago and I personally think we have made great progress and I am proud of what we have achieved and the friendship we have found. I would definitely have rolled over and got back to sleep if I hadn't wanted to see if you were in or out of sleep . . . Not complaining, it made me feel in control of my sleep for the first time in ages because I chose to wake up at silly o'clock to talk to my pal and was not forced awake and frustrated with insomnia !
I have had quite a normalised sleep day. I got up c 5.30 am ( only because I had book ideas flowing and didn't want to lose them in Menopawsal Memory Loss ) and we then went out for lunch c 12.15 pm and got back c 2.30 pm at which point I went for a slight snooze as Mr M was watching footie and got up at 6.20 pm when my alarm for Dancing on Ice went off ( just a tad over a slight snooze and just short of a MEGA one ! ) I then proceeded to stay awake enough to watch my TV shows and a recording and fell asleep c11.00 pm and came to bed at what I though was 3.00 am but must have been 2.00 am . . . Insomnia eyes half open and not seeing the right thing again ! Mr M was in situ and wanted a cuddle as his insomnia was playing up ! The cuddle was going well until he wanted to play eye spy . . . cant wait to ask if he wants to play eye spy next time I come to bed and he is pleasantly in the land of nod . . . Don't think the answer will be the polite no thank you I gave earlier !!!!!
Anyway . . . Luckily I was breathing loudly . . . Don't even need to snore these days and he was offski . . . Pillows under his arms and I was left with a pain in the neck . . . Literally and laterally ! I thought I would have a quick look to see if you had posted and reply before rolling over Rover. I have sprayed my neck with my magic potion BIOFREEZE and it is starting to ease so I will try to bob off again now, or do a meditation.
Hope you are getting some sleep in the right part of the day, or making the best of it if not . . . Think we need to find you something a bit more relaxing than accounting for the wee small hours !
Morning morning ( didn't think it was the right time of day for nightie night ! )
Keeeeeeep sleeping.
TT. X
I'm UP 🙂
Ach, what a lovely post you've written, as ever, Teddy…
You're a sweetie compared to me – I adore a good grizzle!!
I'm going to make a coffee and try to gain at least 50% consciousness before writing anymore, cos none of it will make ANY sense otherwise 🙂
Thank you for being my partner in crime… errr, I mean in insomnia!!
So, in truly confused insomnia style, I'm going to end this post, with what I should've begun it with:
Good morning, Teddy!! Hope you slept well and are having a nice start to your week! 🙂
I love reading your posts and they always put a smile on my face so thanks pal !
WELL DONE on getting up so early on a Monday morning . . . don't worry on how you feel . . . CELEBRATE the fact that you are vertical and out of bed . . . one step at a time sweet Jesus ! This is the second week of you getting up early and is a great achievement . . . think I will have another INDUSTRIAL G&T to celebrate your success after work tonight !!!!
I got up earlier than I had planned this morning as I had a headache . . . too much sleep in the bank me thinks !
I have just replied to a private message from LisaJayne and I have invited her to join our conversations as she is like we used to be . . . awake in the wee small hours . . . I told her we are happy for other insomniacs to join us as we have felt like the only insomniacs in the village since we started this thread . . . Think we must have one of the longest threads . . . wonder if there is a prize !
Oh well I will close now as it is time to hump in the shower !! as my coffee pot is empty . . . another decadent and luxurious awake session enjoyed !
Keeeeeep vertical and look forward to hearing from you soon.
Tired Teddy x
Oh hey, that's great!
Welcome along LisaJayne!
I must warn you, that speaking for me at least, my insomnia has my IQ dipping into single-digit territory rather often, so not sure how classy our conversation here is, but anyone who's brave enough to put up with it can sit with us, waiting for sleep to strike!!
Bout to do my exercise video in a bid to stay active and awake!
Have a good day at work, insomnia buddy/ies!
XXX Groggy 😎
P.S. I must tell you a very cute “Etsy” experience I had on the w/e Teddy! Remind me, if insomnia-induced Alzheimers strikes me!
P.P.S. Tis snowy here!
Oh for crying out loud! You'd think I'd be better at nap-avoidance by now…
I think I must've fallen asleep around 11am or 11:30am and slept til 2:30pm… so that's what… 3 or 3.5 hours of NAP….
Ugh.
Trying hard not to be annoyed. But I guess I did stay up late, working, yesterday, so maybe this evens that out….
Hard to not feel like I've “ruined” today's sleep and work schedules – and hence the perfect excuse to just go back to sleep and be sooky for the rest of the day….
Boy oh boy, aren't I a fool sometimes… 😮
Okay, need to turn this day back around now (it was going SO well, before the NAP) so that my insomnia buddies can be proud of me! 😕
XXX
Trying-to-be-sensible Groggy
What is wrong with a slight snooze in the afternoon when you got up so early ?
Turn it on its head, you were due a snooze after being up 5 hours and you now have 3.5 hours in your sleep bank for today . . . no problem . . . you are just having a different sleep pattern to others . . . I went to bed yesteday for 4 hours mid afternoon and thoroughly enjoyed it and was then able to stay awake for my TV programmes and would never have been able to watch them had I not had a slight snooze.
You are not a fool and this wasn't even a blip, it is just your bodys way of coping with getting up so flaming early. You are doing better than most because you don't actually have to turn out to work so it doesn't matter what time you get up so be proud of yourself for getting up so early when you don't need to.
Don't forget to tell me about your weekend cute Etsy experience.
TTFN as I have a meeting I have to go to.
Keep your chin up, DO NOT get annoyed yourself and do something for a treat, rather than be mad at yourself.
THE SLEEP BOSS !
Hi Sleep Boss 🙂
Yes, you are right of course.
I guess the reason I'm being so “strict” about this is that I've had insomnia for soooo long now that I feel I kind of need to be “strict” else I will never get on top of my body's long-developed routine… And I really don't want to have to keep “stopping and starting” with the attempts to get on top of my insomnia, cos I have tried so often in the past, unsuccessfully, and now is a really good time to try and do this – work-wise it is good timing, my best friend doesn't start her new job for another 4 weeks so can call me in the mornings, I had major improvement with my migraines last year, etc, etc, so the timing would be really good, if it started to gel now… especially with the cool support here 🙄
So yeah, I don't really have an issue with the occasional exception – it's just if it gets to be exceptions all over the shop, I will get frustrated – and I guess sometimes I don't mind them, if at the back of my head I've given myself the “all clear” that I'm on track and an exception wouldn't be a problem, but sometimes (like today) I did NOT want a nap happening and I SO should've seen the warning signals (and I did, really) but I did nothing to prevent the nap running its course… So I am kind of annoyed at myself for having managed it very poorly, despite kind of being aware that I was on dodgy territory… does that make sense?
I guess its important for me to start feeling more empowered about my sleep and to feel confident that I have some sort of “control” over it… and so napping some days is “fine” but today it sort of was not… and that throws my (still somewhat tenuous) sense of control about my (non)sleep…
Anyway, I've gotten over it now… just came back from a 20km bike ride in the snowy cold… Had to go and pick something up and seeing as I had been working indoors all day at a desk with the heating on, I thought “Right – I am going there by bike!” It was quite nice on the way there – I really loved it, but it turned out to be… hmmmm…. shall we say a little further than I had bargained for…? Haha…. So on the way back, despite my toasty “snow” pants (well, ski pants) etc I got cold toes and fingers… and started wishing it wasn't quite so far back to the heated comfort of home… :wacko:
But I am settled in again now, with a luscious heating pad under my frozen toes… :wub:
So, to explain this Etsy thingee… I will try copying and pasting a Skype convo between me and best friend (I will call her “Doona” here – as she is a (morning) insomniac too and I have suggested her to join here too and she loves her doona soooo much….) So I will see if the Skype convo explains the Etsy situation, or if additional comments are needed…..
Groggy:
Hey 🙂
I have to ask you something really silly now:
Did you order a pair of earrings for me on Etsy, or did I??
I don't remember if I ordered them or not – it's possible, cos I was quite upset about having lost one of my favourite earrings at the time (which has since, unexpectedly turned up again)…
Anyway, a pair of Etsy earrings arrived yesterday – and they were gift wrapped…
So now I'm all confused…
So, thank you, if you did – and thank you for being the kind of person that would, if you didn't 🙂
XXX
Doona:
Haha, yes they are from me! (pretty sure). I did order some – the ones that you said you liked when you first started looking around etsy – as a little thank you for all your help (bottomless gratitude, so just a token) over the MAud & esp. that last assessment period!
Groggy:
Oh gosh – how cute are you!!!
Thank you 🙂
They were so gorgeously gift-wrapped!
And phew that I'm not as alzheimerish as I thought, yet!
Doona:
That took a while! I ordered them ages ago! Well, just before we went away over Xmas.
Groggy:
Yeah, they're somewhere from the American Midwest or something…
Doona:
Oh, I'll have to let the lady know you liked the wrapping – I didn't know they would be gift-wrapped to boot!
Sweet.
Groggy:
Well, thank you so much for the lovely treat.
I've decided I'm an earrings girl…
And they're so pretty!
I will honour them as my MAud earrings then!!! Haha
Doona:
When I went to buy them they'd JUST been sold a couple of days before. I wondered & wondered whether maybe you' bought them for yourself already. So I explained the sitch & asked if she could organise another pair just the same – I figured even if you had, it would be good to have a 2nd pair in case you ever lost one!
She was really nice about it
Groggy:
Aw…
Ach, you're so cute…
So yeah, that's them…
My best friend just finished doing her Masters in Audiology (just got the brilliant news that she passed it this week) and I was helping her with her Masters Thesis for the MAud, cos it was a ridiculous amount of stress and assessments and she was just wrecked at some point, struggling to bring the last assessments home over the finish line… so these are my MAud/ Etsy earrings… which I didn't know who had bought for me… haha…
That's my cute Etsy story for you….
I'd best get back to work now 😉
Talk later, insomnia friend!!
Groggy
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